Insecure - Harry Styles

One Direction

Harry was so excited for the first tour of One Direction. Sometimes, he could hardly believe that he was a part of the biggest boy band in the world. 

It was his dream to be a singer since he was a child. He would go around the house always singing and annoying his family with his constant singing. 

When he was put through in the first round on the X-Factor, he was delighted that someone finally let him know if he was any good at singing. Of course his family always told him he was great at singing, but they were his family and were supposed to say stuff like that.

Harry was always a very shy and insecure lad as a child and was really nervous to audition for the X-Factor. When his name wasn't called for the judges' houses round, all the insecurities came rushing back to him, his mind reminding him how useless he was. 

See, you're no good at all. Even the judges agree. Who were you kidding? Of course they wouldn't put you through. They only put you through the first round cuz they felt sympathy for you. Look at all these other people. They are brilliant singers and who are you? Some little kid who thinks that he is good at singing. Psh, as if! 

He tried so hard to keep the tears in, but as he was speaking to the camera, he couldn't hold the tears back anymore and excused himself. He was devastated and was not looking forward to going back to school with everyone knowing how he failed again and how useless he was at everything. 

When they called him back on stage, he was so nervous about what they were going to say. Hearing them say that they were through to the judges' houses brought tears of joy and relief to his eyes. He was just so happy that they decided that he and the other four lads deserved a second chance. 

Since their elimination from the X-Factor, everything was moving so fast for them in regards to their popularity and fans. All of a sudden, thousands of people were admiring him and sending him all these lovely messages on Twitter. 

The boys were getting ready to go on their first tour around the world. They were all looking forward to it so much. Harry was looking forward to it the most, as he loved meeting all the fans. 

They were so lovely to him and the other boys, and he was so grateful to them for their band's success. He knew that without the fans, they would not be so successful. 

They were sitting around the fire in Harry's guesthouse that they stayed in during the X-Factor days, all thinking about their own things. Harry was on his phone looking through Twitter at all the messages from the fans when one message caught his eye. 

hateharrystyles says: "omg who does that harry think he is? he thinks he's such a great singer just because he is in one direction? well harry you should know that you suck at singing and the other boys only keep you in the band because they feel sorry for you. you should just go and die cuz nobody likes you"

Tears sprung to Harry's eyes. It was a good think it was dark otherwise the other boys would be able to see Harry's upset expression. He tried to swallow but he had a lump in his throat. 

don't cry don't cry

"...arry!"

"Harry!"

Harry blinked and looked around.

All the boys were looking over at him.

Liam said, "Are you ok, harry?" 

Harry pasted a smile on his face and said "Of course! What makes you think I'm not ok?"

Louis and Zayn exchanged looks and Zayn said "We've been calling your name for the past minute, didn't you hear us?"

Harry shook his head and faked a yawn "No I'm sorry, I must have spaced out. I'm very tired."

He stood up and stretched "I think I'm going to go to bed now. Good night everyone."

He left the room quickly so that the boys wouldn't see his watering eyes.

The four boys looked at each other to try and figure out what just happened.

Niall shrugged "He must be really tired, I guess. We did have a long day today and we have an even longer day tomorrow, what with the start of our tour, I'm sure he will be fine in the morning."

The other three boys agreed that Niall must be right and decided to let it go and head to bed as well.

Meanwhile, Harry was in his room trying to keep his sobs low so that the other boys didn't hear him crying.

The comment on Twitter really hit Harry where he was already insecure and he couldn't get it out of his head.

He cried himself to sleep, hoping that the next day would be a better day.

A/N just a little note to say that I love harry and I believe that he is a great singer. The hater's thoughts are not mine