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3. c o n f r o n t

"Reunion night? I figured. I guess trust is bad thing" She said and I didn't argue on that. I deserved everything she was saying, I had taken advantage of her trust in me,

"I didn't know it was going to turn out like this Bells, I thought we were just becoming friends again but one night we ended up kissing and one thing led to another" I said and she chuckled bitterly.

"For a while, I thought it was just physical and I wanted to end it as soon as possible but for some reason, everytime I went up to her to tell her its over, I couldn't. One night we just spent talking and I realized how much I've missed her, no matter how horribly our relationship ended previously" I said and she finally looked at me.

"And then I just couldn't stay without her, I started seeing her everyday. Yes, I used work as excuse but that was because I didn't want to hurt you and I wasn't sure of what I wanted myself" I said.

"But I think I've figured it now..." I mumbled and her glossy ocean eyes looked at me with so much hope and made it hard to make the next words fall out of my mouth.

"I feel like we've fallen apart Bella. I don't feel it anymore. The love between us, its g-gone for me" I said and her lips parted, not to speak anything but to take in a shaky breath.

"And you have no idea how terrible I fell but I can't keep playing you like this anymore. But this does not at all mean that everything that happened between us was never real. I've had amazing five years with you but now I realize I moved too quick Bella..." I said and she looked at me with disbelief.

"Too quick?!" She said.

"Bella, you came in right after Nia went out of my life. I was so heartbroken that when I found you, I felt like I didn't want anything else. We didn't even date for a year before getting married, we were just twenty two!" I said.

"But now we are 27 years old, fully grown and independent adults Justin and you realize this five years later!?" He voice rose

"I ran away from my parents to marry you, I gave up all my dreams for yours and this is what you give me in return, telling me that you moved too quick and we were too young!?" She yelled.

"Bella please calm down. Okay forget that , forget everything about the past. But right now? I love Nia and I cannot put my efforts in this marriage anymore. The divorce papers have been in my drawer for a while now, trust me when I say I did want to tell you sooner than this" I said.

"Oh, you have the divorce papers ready too, wow, now isn't that moving quick Justin? Isn't divorcing your wife for years for the girl you've been seeing for three months quick?" She said.

"I've dated her for for years before Bella, she was my first everything, my first love" I said and the tears that were welling in her eyes finally streamed down her cheeks.

I shifted closer to her and grabbed her hand.

"You're amazing Bella and I can promise you that everytime I told you I loved you, I wasn't lying, but I just can't anymore" I said and she just kept crying.

I could only wish that I could comfort her somehow but I had no words. 

"And hey, don't worry about anything okay? You can have that apartment in the silver towers, you love it there right? And as of me, I'm always here for you. Just because we won't be married anymore, doesn't mean that we won't b-

"No....I'm not going anywhere" She said and stopped crying suddenly and it took me a couple seconds to process what she said.

"What?" I asked and she wiped her tears and looked at me and nodded.

"I don't have to move anywhere because we won't be divorced until I sign those paper right?" She said.

"Bella do you understand what you're staying?" I said and she smiled.

"Of course I do Justin. It you, who have stopped feeling anything for me, you, who doesn't love me anymore. But what about me? I still love you and I still believe in our marriage and I won't sign the divorce papers until I stop feeling all this" She said.

"Are you insane?! I just told you I want a divorce because I love someone else, Bella do you fucking understand that!?" I couldn't help but raise my voice.

"It's crystal clear to me Justin and my decision is final, I'll be staying right here because I still love you and you can do whatever the hell you want with her and I will till you realize what mistake you made" She said.

"I'm making no mistake, I've thought a lot over this why don't you understand?!" I said and she stood up and shrugged.

"I don't care, I'm not going anywhere and that's final. Goodnight, you should sleep too, its late and we have work tomorrow" She said and went upstairs simply.

I sat there in disbelief about what just happened.

The first thing I did was call Nia.

"Hey J-

"She freaking denied to divorce me!" I said.

"What?!" 

"Yes, I told her everything about us but she said she won't divorce me because she still loves me and she'll stay right here" I said.

"Isn't divorce the first thing a married woman asks for when she finds out her husband is cheating on her?" She said.

"She told she always knew I was cheating but she somehow got to know its you yesterday itself, I don't know how" I said.

"Should we consider a lawyer?" She said and I shook my head.

"We can't Nia, we just can't take this divorce to the court we'll only end up losing because she ran away from her house for me. And her parents never even tried to contact her after that, forget finding her. When I say she literally has no one but me, its true, we can't fight her" I said.

"Then what should we do now?" She said and I sighed.

"I don't know. Wait? Maybe she'll change her mind, maybe she said all that in the heat of the moment" I said.

" Yeah, seems like that's the only thing we can do for now" She said.

"That's the only thing we can do till she signs the papers herself" I said.

I'm so taken aback by this decision of her, I can't believe she'd rather watch me see another woman behind her than divorce me.

I don't think she understands what she's doing at all...

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bitch you won't

my boo Bella is here to stay

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-Love, S