Si tu savais...

03/02/18-슈가...

Hi,  I'm back ^^
Today I was trying to don't think about you, but it wasn't easy... Should I completely stop and give up?
No, no, no. It can't do that.
You give me happiness everyday...
It's already 3a.m in Korea, right? At my home it's 7p.m. I don't wanna go eat...
But if it's jaepchae then it's not a problem ^^
Aish, I'm saying weird things again...
I guess it can't be helped.
What should I say...
I'm listening (again) to your solo album ^^ Your voice is so beautiful...
어떠케...
I'm hopeless...
I would like to be born as a Korean guy... Like that I won't be so far from you...
It's not like I don't like France but it's quite bad this time... I don't mean about me, but about all : they wanna change education.
ㅙ???
I don't understand French politicans...
But it's not like it was so bad. I have friends. They accept me.  Even if they don't understand me — they can't. I'm such a weird guy...
They call me "the Korean" at school. It makes me smile. It seems like I'm really a Korean. It makes me happy.
But I would be more happy if I could see you.
Would you come to France? We really miss Bangtan. Our babies~♥
I need your love~~~ I feel like iKON's member °-°
Nobody lo-o-o-oves me~
Nobody lo-o-o-oves me~
I need your love
Give me your love
Right now~
Right now~
Yeah this song suits me so well...

어떠케?
I can't think about anyone else than you...
Is there any medecine for helping me?
I'm falling in the dark more and more everyday...
I wanna wake up from this nightmare but you are keeping me there.
I wanna my pain killer...
Maybe you will give it to me?
Or will you stay still, wathing me dying in front of you, on your foot?
어떠케?
Let me drink your tears one time,
Maybe it will stop mines.
Should I call a doctor?
Does he have a miracle for making you appear next to me?
Yeah I don't think 'bout others,
I did it too much.
어떠케?
I wanna live my life as the others,
But your face is everytime in my brain and I can't erase it.
I wanna throw all my life, let it go and become your toy,
The only one that you will look at.
어떠케?
I'm crazy,
But it's only your fault (or maybe's mine?)
You're the only reason for me to continue to live,
So what would I do if you leave?
어떠케?
Have I another goal that your heart?
Let my heart beats until I die,
But please stay by my side.
어떠케?
Why am I crying?
You may don't hear it,
But my heart's still beating for you.
어떠케?
My hands are waiting for the day when they will touch yours.
My arms are waiting for the day when yours will hug me.
I wanna give you all that I have for seeing your smile,
But will you even notice me?
어떠케?
There are so many people.
Maybe you won't see me,
But I won't stop to look at you,
Until our eyes meet.
And at this moment,
Time will stops.
어떠케?
My hands will start to shake,
My throat will become thirsty,
And the heat will become stronger.
어떠케?
Maybe you won't feel like that,
That's why I will be afraid to approach you.
But my legs will move by their own,
And I won't be able to stop them.
어떠케?
I'm so afraid
That my mouth starts to say things that I don't mean.
I'm so afraid
That my hands won't be able to hold yours.
I'm so afraid
That my heart will make to much noise
And that you will hear it.
어떠케?
Should I let you go,
And break all my dreams?
아니.
I wanna scream to the whole worlds
How much I love you
Even if you don't care.
사랑해,
I wanna say,
Even if you someone else loves you.
I won't let anyone have your heart,
'Cause I'm too possessive.
어떠케?
Because of your smile,
I can't even sleep.
Because of your eyes,
I can't even die.
사랑해 오빠 ♥

I don't know why I wrote that...

I guess that i'm too hopeless...

See you ^^
사랑해 오빠 ~♥