Scribble Notes

Scribbled Notes

~Who I was

~ What I was doing

~ Who I was with

~ What I was doing when I saw the building

~ Where I live

~ My contact info

They were taking notes on EVERYTHING I said. I was getting a little creeped out. I didn't understand why they were being so critical. There were people standing around the bottom of the bottom of the building and a lot of people called 911 besides me but they were only interested in my story and all about me! How are they so interested in me and careless about everyone else? Like I said I was so creeped out by what was going on..........

Everyone at school heard about the fire the next day and heard about how weirdly I was treated. People kept coming up to me and asking the same questions and I answered the same way. Then some idiot started a rumor about me and how I was the one that started the fire, when in all reality I just SAW it. Now everyone thinks I am an arsonist, which I am not.

Chapter 4-

It has been three weeks since my best friend has gone missing and I don't know why she isn't here. I don't know where she is. I can't think of where she is! I have looked at all of our favorite spots. She isn't there. I have put up missing person flyers! She hasn't called, and she hasn't left me anymore notes. I have kept all of her other notes to myself. I haven't told anyone or showed anyone.

The police have been back quite a few times since I have gotten the notes, still asking me if I got any info on where she was from or if I knew that she had contacted people but she hasn't and I have no idea if she had been anywhere near here or if she had contacted any of my friends or anyone else. If she had I WANT TO KNOW! I hate how she just left me, after everything we have been through! She knows I would do anything for her, but she left! This shit is driving me nuts!

The reason she left is because everyone had thought that she started a fire! She DIDN'T and I know that because...... I did.........I did it because I was tired of people thinking I am such a good person. When people see me, they see a girl who does what she is told, I was tired of that stereotype so I burned down that building because I wanted to do something exotic, different... Now I don't know what to do! And the reason the police questioned her so much is because she looks a lot like me! We could be fucking sisters! I now lost my best friend to my mistake and I can't imagine WHY she is gone or WHERE she would go. I hate the she is only giving me notes now and then! Like I said it has been a while since she has sent me any notes.

Chapter 5-

I am starting to think that my friend is dead, I haven't heard anything from her but things can change, it hasn't been a great week for me. My boyfriend broke up with me and I am not talking to my parents and I barely eat. I don't know why she ain't giving me more hints or notes or whatever... I wonder if she wants people to THINK she is dead.... Ugh I hate that! School is tough without her and I very much don't like that she may be dead or alive... I wish I knew...

I confessed to starting that fire and I feel that I am the only one to blame for her disappearance. Because if I hadn't set that goddamn fire then she would still be here and she isn't. If she killed herself I will kill myself. I can't stand knowing she is gone because of me and she writes notes scared of seeing who is coming and I feel that she makes me wonder to make her feel that she is worth something which she is, but she never felt like that.... Ever. I hate that she had disappeared and is ignoring me when I need her most. I only had to pay a fine for starting that fire. I feel bad and publicly apologized now people are saying that they think that she disappeared because of me and I hate that people think that but I don't think that they are wrong. I love her and miss her but like I said it is my fault... maybe if I disappear she will reappear.. Haha. not likely.

Chapter 6-

So I FINALLY got another letter today. " Hey! I am coming back! See you tomorrow."

Oh my god, oh my god, oh my god I am so happy because I finally get to see her. It has been four months!!!!!!! I really hope she will actually show and not chicken out!

One day later

I woke up early and I am sitting on my porch and I see a car driving up slowly... I look and soon it stops and a girl gets out. She has short hair and tattoos and piercings... it is Mercedes! Oh my god! She looks so different! She runs up to me and hugs me! I start to cry and so does she. I tell her she looks amazing! She smiles and we don't let go of eachother for a good 5 minutes. She tells me that she was here the whole time! I ask her where! She tells me I have been living in an abandoned building and she tells me that she was doing that so she could live out the wrath of the bullcrap people were giving her. Then I break it to her.... I tell her how I started the fire.... She looks at me and gives me a squeeze saying "it's okay" and I tell her fine. She looks at me and says she's sorry. I tell her it's okay and she says "Okay". We can't stop looking at each other and I mainly can't stop looking at her because she is so pretty! I have never seen her that beautiful. She looks like so different. I love that she looks like that. She knows that she means the world to me so then I start asking her why she like left and why she like didn't tell anyone where she was going and only left a few notes and why she didn't show up the first time. She tells me she is only back for a few days just to test all the shit. I tell her that everyone knows it was me. They are not the happiest with me, but I am still got people. She tells me that she maybe won't leave again and that she still will stay here and make sure I know that she cares and that she won't leave. I doubt it will happen but it's whatever. I don't really care how she feels about me anymore. She is very different. She is like more exotic with her new piercings and new hair color. I feel like I don't even know her anymore. She always used to tell me that she would never do anything to her hair, or pierce herself other than her ears. And how she didn't want to damage her hair by dying it. Now that she has gone through this change, she is more of a pushover-jerk. She thinks everyone has to do what she says when she says it, and I'm kinda done with that. She is kinda different and I feel that she is just like trying to make me feel sympathy for her. She knows that I trust her with my life, but if she is really this different, I feel that I don't even know her anymore. I love her to death but she is different. I feel bad for saying this but I don't wanna be her friend anymore. She is not the person I knew before she left. She is different. She talks different, acts different, is like crazy and I don't know how to describe it or my feelings. I don't wanna break her heart but I just can't accept the new her. I know it's a bitchy thing for me to do but I can't be friends with her anymore. My parents thought she was a jerk to start out with and now that she looks like one they will hate her even more so when they find out that she is like this they will flip. Might as well end it now. I tell her "We can't be friends anymore" she looks at me and says "that's fine I was just thinking we could use a break." I look at her and she is sniffling and looking away and I give her a hug and she breaks down saying that she left because the wanted to be alone. She didn't wanna be by people so the first note she left me was just basically a smoke screen so I wouldn't worry about her. I can't believe she would do this to me. She promised she wouldn't. I am so frustrated that she would hurt me like that and I just feel so stupid because she would "give up" on me and I can't stand her right now. So I walked away and left her standing there and as I kept looking back I saw her slowly walking toward me and I just feel bad that she did that.