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Chapter 3 - Tonite is the Nite (pt. 1)

I glance between Bae and I reflection comparing our features I never really saw a resemblance between us but strangers, friends, and the little family that fucks with us says we look like each other. Although a lot of people claim Ciara and I look more alike than Bae and I, I never really agreed with either claim. I personally think I'm more so the outcast of the family, I've always been the odd one out.

It use to bother me but I've learned to accept it and move on. I hate dwelling on something that I don't have control over all that ever does is drag me back into that dark place all over again and I refuse to let that happen. It is what it is you can't change it accept it and move forward. I reminded myself as I slowly breathe in and out with my eyes shut.

"Kim are you okay?" I quickly opened my eyes and looked at the small hand placed on my shoulder. I didn't even know what to say at this moment. "Kim do you hear me" Bae said, gently shaking my shoulders with concern written all over her face.

"Yeah I'm fine I just had a lot on my mind nothing you should worry about." I rushed passed her and grabbed my purse and exited my room, Bae followed behind me. The house is quiet as I expected it to be since Taty is at work and Ciara been at school all day.

"You sure you alright don't be lying and then take yo ass to work and have an anxiety attack cause I'm not coming to get you, you better call momma this time." Bae said causing me to sigh. The last thing I wanted is for her to be worried about me and I really didn't want those memories to flood my head again.

"Bae I'm fine okay. You don't need to worry about me anymore I'm a big girl now I got this." I said proudly with my head held high. We went from my room to the living room to the kitchen and lastly out the front door. We stood close to my car as Bae continued her rant.

"You always say that shit and next thing you know I'm dragging you out of bathroom stalls trying to calm you down I reall..." I cut her sentence short already knowing where she was going with this.

If she was talking to me maybe two years ago then she would be right but in this case she isn't, again I'm a big girl now I know what I'm doing and I'm going to prove it to her.

"Look I know what I said but that was before I knew how to control myself I got this under control. I promise you don't have to worry about me ight." I reassure her unlocking the car door and plopping down onto the seat. Bae closed the car door before leaning on the car door.

"And plus I haven't even had one of those in some months even without the medication there is nothing that you need to worry about. I'm grown I know what I'm doing." I added finally convincing her to not worry about me.

"Mhm... we'll see about that but I'm going to let you go now yo ass probably late by now." she giggled causing her deep dimples to show. I put the key in the ignition getting ready to pull off until stopped me. I sigh, slowing turn towards her with an annoyed look on my face. I wonder what she wants now.

"What now?" I question, admiring my manicure.

"Don't forget we going to Ryan's block party tonight so don't start making plans... ight?" I totally forgot all about tonight. I was fine with it though I haven't been out in a while plus this is Ryan's party we're talking about. Ryan is known for throwing the best parties and since shes no longer in high school and works at a small record label company, seniors and juniors are not the only people that attend. I even heard that a couple of celebrities will be attending so I would be a fool to miss out.

"Oh yeah, Ciara was just telling me about that the other day but, I thought Taty and Ryan don't fuck with each other no more." I said, remembering Taty and Ryans falling out a couple of years ago. Long story short Ryan and Tatyanna are cousins, they never really got along because of personal family issues but things didn't really go left until Ryan slept with Tatyanna's ex, Marion who also happens to be best friends with Raheem. Small world right.