WARNING :: Writer was not in the right state of mind while writing it. The circumstances might have blurred the consciousness of the writer...
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Have you ever been disappointed that many times that you feel , you cannot be more disappointed ? But alas then again life offers you something , puts you in such situations that your heart breaks into million pieces , every single time that you even begin to imagine if it is humanly possible to be hurt that much. You feel that you have been so carefully woven into the web of relations that you cannot escape , not even when you feel suffocating. There are times when you just want to get you hands on an invisibility cloak and use it to hide yourself from the world , the world where you are so mercilessly hurt on daily basis that sometimes you have to think a hundred times to do , say or even think something , thinking about the outcome of your actions. You want to just cry out all your pain on those seemingly unending nights but even your tears betray you. You want your heart to break in the most deadly way possible for once , so that you don't have to go through this pain every single moment of everyday and worry about the darkness of your heart soon engulfing your whole existence. The nights that earlier used to haunt you , have now become a silent companion that helps you to just sit and think that what had I done so wrong to deserve this ? Isn't it right to be happy , to live without constantly worrying about everything , to just be your true self , to not always be afraid of getting judged , to believe in those fairy tales that you have grown up listening to , to believe in happily ever afters , to have a choice to dream again even if you have failed once and do not regret every single thing that makes you who you are ???
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I have not written this part expecting some appreciation from anyone.
I was feeling low and needed to escape the harsh reality of my life.
I am sorry if you have read it from starting to end.......
Have you ever felt like this ???
