Whether I Like It Or Not

Trash Can Fires and Lonely Streets

"Hey you stupid fuckin ki-", the guy started gritting but I cocked my gun under my flannel and flashed it to him while smirking and shaking my head.

He instantly let Angel go and I glared at him as I threw my arm around Angel leading him away.

"Come on", I said, as I walked us down a alley that was dry.

I walked to the end then sat in the corner behind a dumpster, then a few seconds later Angel sat beside me.

"Where do we go?", I asked.

"I don't know Ray", he said, staring blankly at the wall across from us.

I knew we were both tired, beat-literally, and hungry.

"Why did you end up there?", I asked staring at the ground.

"Cause I wanted to come get you", he answered.

"That was stupid", I scoffed and shook my head.

"I know...but it's kinda what Hearts do", he shrugged.

"You could've died, Angel", I nodded down at him.

"I know", he nodded back.

I sighed then shook my head again and put it on the wall behind us.

"Why did Cody give me up?", I finally asked.

He just sighed and shook his head.

"I don't know Ray", he said.

I nodded fast and wiped my tears away angrily before crossing my arms over my chest.

"In the morning, well find our way back alright, just-", I stopped and sniffed then shook my head and sighed again."Just go to sleep kid."

He just looked down and I took my gun out, checking to see how many rounds I had left before I put the magazine back in and stared at it.

Angel yawned one last time before he leaned his head on my shoulder and went to sleep.

I looked up from my gun and at the wall in front of us, watching the shadows of people walk by us dance across it.

It was then that I realized I was more alone than I thought.

It did'nt matter how much I tried not to think about it, all I could think about is how disgusted I was with myself.

I wanted to die.

I could feel and see them running their hands all over me and ripping my clothes everywhere-everytime I closed my eyes.

Shaking my head, I took a deep shaky breath and sniffed as I leaned my head back against the wall behind me, then before I knew it I fell asleep.