Gallagher Charlie (Shameless)

Chapter 1

"Debs, Charlie, up" an obnoxious voice suddenly cuts in to my slumber. I groan and roll over again earning a "Charlotte!" from my older sister Fiona. I sit up "okay, okay no need to shout" I mumble sleepily, rubbing my eyes. She leaves Debbie and I, we look at each other, "dibs!" we both say loudly as I jump off my bed and collide with Debbie as we run out the door to the bathroom.
"You were first yesterday" I snap at her as she gets closer. "I'm older!" she retorts.
"Bye two years!" I grab the back of her shirt and pull her back and I reach the handle and grip it between my hands and throw the door open then as soon as I'm through it I slam the door in Debbie's face.

I peel my clothes off my body, I let my hair loose of the hair tye. My dark brown locks fall down my shoulders. My skins tanned golden, I am the only Gallagher with this, I turn the shower nob and wait for it to warm up and I stand under the running water, I look at my arms. Little, skinny white scars are embedded in them. I sigh seeing them, I haven't done that in 3 years now.
A few minutes pass and I step out into the cool air, hitting my water soaked body and I instantly regret getting out of the warm water. I quickly dry myself and put on some jeans and a sweater, I open up the door and make my way down stairs.
I notice some eggs and bacon waiting for me at the table and walk to it. Lip walks in and faces Fiona as he grabs some toast. "Have you got enough for gas?" he asks and her eyes widen, "ahh, I've picked up an extra shift so i'll be able to pay it off next Tuesday" she shrugs, putting her mug in the sink.

"Yay, no hot water" Carl says sarcastically with a mouth full, I roll my eyes at the common occurrence of being late for a bill. "I've got $300" I announce to Fiona, she looks at me and frowns. "No Charlie, your saving" I shake my head.
"Its fine" I say and get up ignoring her protest and go up to my room. I bump into Ian, "woah, watch where your going speedy" he says stepping out of my way. "Hush ginger" I quip, he chuckles and I smirk.

I walk with Carl and Debbie to school, rubbing my arms. "Can you cover for me tonight, me and G-dog gotta do business tonight" Carl says in a ghetto voice and I roll my eyes. "You know your white right?" I say and he scoffs. 
"So? I still have black in me" he defends himself. "Doesn't make you black" I argue, he flicks my head. "Will you two shut up, your twins,  aren't you meant to be loving?" Debbie questions and Carl and I laugh out loud. "That's bullshit" he says and I nod, "I fucking hate Carl".
"Nah, your just pissed because your my sister and you cant jump this" he smirks and I cough loudly. "That's disgusting" I say slapping his shoulder, he just laughs and takes a drag of his smoke.

When I reach my locker my friend Jackie walks up to me. I glance at her, "hey girl" I say shoving my things in my locker. "So, I was talking to Tyson he told me his friend Matty silverman wanted us to make an appearance at his party on Friday, we have to go, fucking Matty silverman!" she enthuses and I laugh a little at my friend. "Yeah, but i'm getting changed at your house, mines a fucking zoo".
"So what do you think, Matty?" she asks me and I smile, "i'd love to sit on his face, we almost hooked up once" I explain and she gasps, "why didn't I know about this" she gasps as we walk into our classroom. "This was before he got hot, it was irrelevant" I tell her.
"Hey Gallagher, I heard you had to blow a bunch of old dudes on the street just to get MacDonald's" A girl says to me and a bunch of people laugh. 
"Oh, really, stop getting your stories mixed up with mine precious, we know you get drunk senseless just to forget about your shitty life and your slutty mother but try remember what i've done and what you've done" people praise my reply, Georgia glares. "Says you, your dads a homeless retard, your siblings are all fucked, your home looks like its home to meth lab owners and prostitutes and well it looks like your mum got raped by a Dog and had you" she says with a smirk and I clench my jaw, my insecurities hit me. No, don't let her make you feel that way I tell myself with a shaky sigh.
"Shut the fuck up and go cleanse your face pizza face, that's what happens when you don't clean the jizz off your face quick enough" Jackie suddenly says and I give her a small smile, she nods at me and before Georgia can reply the teacher interrupts. "Alright ladies, save the quarreling for later, for now lets learn English".

I get home later that night, Fiona and Veronica sit on the couch laughing, a casket of wine on the kitchen counter. Dark thoughts cloud my head, another day of getting bullied and constantly reminded of why i'm a piece of shit. Old feelings were starting to resurface, 3 years, I promised myself I wouldn't. I sigh loudly, again it seems shaky, "hey Charlie, how was school" Fiona asks, I shrug. "It was okay I guess" I say and start to walk to the stair case, "hey, wait a minute, are you okay?" Fiona asks, worry filling her eyes.
"Yeah i'm fine, just tired" I lie, I walk up to my room and study.

A few hours pass, Lip comes in. "Hey, Fiona wants to know when your gonna eat" he asks, scanning me with his eyes. "I'm not hungry" I say monosyllabicly  and he rolls his eyes, "don't start this shit again Charlie, if you want fucking attention go to a fucking brothel, if not go downstairs and eat, your not worth the fucking worry" he snaps. 
"Fuck off!" I yell, and he gives me a greasy. "No you fuck off Charlie" the way he says it makes a lump form in my throat.

I sit on the couch, my food only a little touched. Once again, I fight my thoughts and feelings, I can't look at Lip, his words echo through my head. He used to be such a loving brother, but ever since he started collage hes turned into a grump.Frank walks in, a beer in his hand.
"Hello my off springs" he slurs, "Fuck off frank" Ian snaps, he sits on the couch next to Mickey Milkovich, his on and off boyfriend.

"Can I borrow a bed to sleep in tonight" he asks, Fiona laughs. "What happened to the bench?" Lip asks causing Mickey and Ian to laugh. "It'll be winter soon, do you want me to freeze to death, i'm still your father you know" he says in annoyance.
"You know your not welcome here" Fiona says sharply, a few of my siblings tell him to piss off. I don't know why I say it but I do. "You can have my bed" He looks at me. "Really?" he says, surprised. 
"Are you fucking serious?" Lip says, and I nod, "why not, i'm not worth the worry any way" I say, I give Lip a look and guilt crosses his face. "No, he's not" Ian says but I ignore them and walk to the door. "Where are you going?" Fiona yells. 
"I'll figure it out" I say back as I close the door. I walk down the steps and reach the pavement, the door opens. Fiona stands at the steps, "Charlie, get back inside please, its freezing, you cant wander the streets all night, franks a grown man, he can figure out a bed somewhere else" I shake my head. "It's fine Fi" I tell her and she frowns, "he can have the couch" she says coming more down the steps.
"Seriously, don't worry about me, i'll be okay, its not a big deal, I wanted some time to think anyway" I tell her.

They probably don't want me in the house anyway, I don't deserve it, dads more important, I tell myself. I start to walk off, "as your guardian i'm telling you to get back inside" I ignore her attempts and walk.
I walk and walk until I find a bench near a lake and I start to think. My siblings would be so much better without me, I wish I had of died in the womb and Carl had of been the only one born. A tear slides down my cheek.

Hey guys I know that was morbid but all the other Gallagher kids are strong so I thought I'd write Charlie a bit different, her childhood has beaten her thoughts and she's not as strong as her siblings
I hope you enjoyed
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Mollie x