Thomas's Journal

December 2, 1990

I'm not crazy.

As much as people think i am, i'm not. Yes, i suffer from bipolar, depression, anxiety, etc., but I'm not crazy.

The reason why i say that, is because i've been able to see things since i was a kid. I don't know how, or why, but i can. I think the first person i've been able to see was my nana. She died before i was even born. I was, i think 4 or 5 when i could see Nana April. Mom was kinda shocked when she found me in my room, talking to nobody. She asked who i was talking to, and i told her, "I'm talking to Nana April!" She told me to ask her something to prove that it was Nana April. Mom asked me to ask her what Nana's nickname was. Nana said that her nickname was sweet pea, and i told mom, and...she just stood there...in complete shock.

And mom used to say that i would spend hours playing with my imaginary friend, Zax. But that was when i was older, around the age of 10. He was my age, and was a really cool imaginary friend. But...he caused a lot of trouble and i would end up getting in trouble for it. There was a time where i was chasing Zax in the kitchen, even though mom told me countless times not to. As a "joke," Zax grabbed a dinner plate from the table and threw it at me. Luckily, it missed me, but it hit the wall and shattered. I was locked in place, i didn't think that he could do something like that. Mom yelled at me and sent me to my room for the rest of the night... i still don't know how he did that...

It's been six years, and that was the last i saw of him.