Letters

Dear Maddie,

Dear Maddie,

This must be weird, me writing you this letter. Especially since we haven't talked since eighth grade. I'm sorry. You don't know why i'm sorry and to be honest, neither do I. But I know that i'm sorry. I'm sorry for leaving you. I'm sorry if I ever made you feel alone. I know that us not being friends for certain years was not your fault. I know that now. I'm sorry for making everything wrong that happened between us your fault. I now know that it was my fault just as much as it was yours. Maybe even more. I always felt out place when I was with you, Sasia, and Angelina. You all had more in common with each other than I did with you guys individually. Maybe that's my fault because I never tried harder to fit in with any of you. But i'm not you guys. As much as I try to be and as much as I want to be, i'm not. I'm just me. That's all I'll ever be. Me... when we stopped being friends I never knew how closer you got to them. I mean yeah, I got closer to other people too but you guys were always closer with each other. Anyone friendships I made always for some reason just ended. But you were always there for me. When Angelina got together with Cody right after he and I broke up, you were there for me. Even when Dj broke up with me over the phone and started dating Angelina, you were there for me. Maybe not all the time but you helped. Somewhat. Sure Cyleste helped me the most which is weird considering she an I barely knew each other. Yet she knew me better than you. And vise versa. But I know that you'll always be there for me. Even when you don't know it because the advice that you've been giving to me over the years, will always make me feel better. It will always help me. You were always there for me, but then you weren't. It took us a while but we became friends again. But our friendship will never be the same. We're not as close as we used to be. Then again we were only close in kindergarten. Maybe it's because of Trustan moving and Cece trying to steal you but, it wasn't your fault and now I know. I just wish that I had figured it out earlier. Maybe we could still be friends. It wasn't your fault for Cece taking you away. It was my fault for letting you go. And I apologize. I'm sorry. I am. Well i've got to go. I hear someone coming.

Xoxo, 

-W