The Truth

Difficult

When you think of the words "sexual harassment" or the words "sexual abuse" some people don't take it as seriously as they should. I know that I didn't quite understand the whole thing until it happened to me. For me it's one of those things where you don't fully understand until you actually have it happen to you. Ever since the whole thing started I haven't been the same, but the thing is it didn't start with me. It started off with my best friend, 3 days before thanksgiving break History class 2:30 pm. At first I didn't hear what this guy was saying to her for the first two days, but then I heard it. I heard him say "I stalk you every night" that set me off, after class I went straight to the office and reported the shiz out of that boy. When we came back from break he was in the same room as her and called her a "dirty whore." When that happened her mom finally filed a police report and the school started to "keep watch on it." 2 weeks later this guy decided to come talk to me and say the same exact things as he said to my best friend. Now what he's aren't just stupid things, they are seriously messed up. He told me that he's going to rape me and he went into detail about how he's going to do it, he also went into detail about how he's going to break into my house and watch me sleep. I told my mom and my best friends mom because we are all super close, we weren't going to file a police report until something else happened. I have had no contact with this kid for a month until he did something I will never ever forgive him for. I was at my locker getting my bag for the end of the day and he came past me and grabbed my butt. Thankfully my friend was right there to witness the entire thing, while I was still in shock from what happened she came over to me. She dragged me downstairs to go to the office to report this right away. You see it was Friday and when we went to report it the principals didn't even have any emotion, he said " okay I'll talk to him when we get back from the weekend." When schools say that they have it under control they really don't because after that happened, he still came after me. Again and again and again, to be told that they can't do anything pisses me off to the point where I cry over anger. To this day the school has not done anything to fix the kid, or to fix me or any of the rest of the girls. If my school board sees this, I am ashamed to be in this town and in your school district. If you think that you have fixed any of this you are wrong. Just because he stopped doesn't mean that I have stopped being paranoid every time he walks by, it still doesn't mean that he hasn't tried to say anything to me,and  it doesn't mean that he still wants to do something to another girl. But since I wrote this little passage I have decided that I'm not a victim anymore, I am a survivor of sexual abuse and sexual harassment.