a collection of my thoughts

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Seventeen

this may not make much sense for I tend to ramble and jumble my thoughts up then I write things like this, bare with me while I tell you the things I've learned in my short seventeen years 

first, well I don't know where to start first, I don't know what would be the most important thing for you to know so I'll just start with my theory, but remember everything I'm is quality important as the others 

I have this theory, you see it's we all have bad days, bad weeks, months, years, so on. most of the time it's kinda spread out, it doesn't really happen one after the other but it does some people or at least it seems like it does, so I guess whoever and whatever plans our lives forgot to spend it out I think that just means a bunch of wonderful things are on the way lovely wonderful things, I'm not saying there won't be bad times jumbled with those wonderful times just like there's wonderful things jumbled with the bad just same there will be less and less of the bad.

i've been told I'm wise beyond my years and that I understand more things the most my age dot , understand people and pain their feelings and lives the best I can and I had a doctor explain it to me yesterday I am sensitive, I feel things more, good or bad. I feel them, I understand them and I think this is where my need to help people comes from because I know the pain and hurt and I don't want anyone else to feel it so if you are like me sensitive, don't think of it as being weak as many do think it as a sign of wisdom and knowledge 

Family doesn't always mean the blood relation you share with someone, home isn't always a building you live in, "blood is thicker than water" is bullshit. blood family can be some of the shittiest people you ever meet and unsupportive and just plain shit, family is the people who support you and love you home isn't four walls home is a feeling that someone gives to its safety being comfortable

it's okay to take things day by day or even hour by hour, I spent a lot of time stressing over things that are yet to come some of them things I made up in my head. at this age we are told we must figure out what we want to do with the rest our lives and I think that's ridiculous I can't even plan out what I'm going to wear the next day let alone my whole life. so just stop freaking out and worry about today cause you'll miss it if you are to busy worrying about the future. 

Find comfort in the little things, let them fill you with joy and bliss and keep them close whether it be music,writing, the smell of rain or a cuppa tea. they make it all the difference on your down days

I hate to break it to you but your going to have to save yourself I spent so long thinking I needed someone to save me whether it be a boy or a band, but all this time they wouldn't be the reason I'm still alive, I was 

the band or artist you say saved your life actually didn't they gave you strength and a safe place to hide, but you my dear, you didn't kill yourself because you wanted to be alive. you stopped self harming because you wanted to

this isn't a john green novel, some boy isn't going to show up and make everything okay 

there is a twentyone pilots quote "no one else is doing with your demons, meaning maybe defeating them could be the beginning of your meaning friend" and I don't think I need to say more on that 

who you are at seventeen isnt who you'll be the rest of your life it may seem like it is hopeless and the end but trust me it's just a rough start something beautiful</pre>