The Story of Us (Jason McCann FanFiction)

Chapter Five- Change Me

Chanel's P.O.V.

"You heard me, I hate you Jason McCann", I say walking away not bothering to look back.

"Chanel please...I love you". Tears had started to well up his beautiful mocha orbs.

"If you fucking loved me you would've never done that in the first fucking place", I shot back.

"Listen, don't be all bitchy on me. I own you. You have no right to disobey me", he hissed. , my eyes widened with shock. He did not just say that.

"You're the worst," I hissed at him. His dark brown eyes never left mine as I continued. "You act like you rule the world. You act so high and mighty when you're nothing but a pathetic excuse of a man."

His eyes filled with rage but I didn't regret a single word that escaped my lips.

"You know I really thought we were going good...but then I decided to fuck everything up again...it's all my fault", he whispered.

Guilt washed over me and I placed my hand on his shoulder to at least try to comfort him.

"It's okay Jason...maybe you didn't mean it...maybe I'm over reacting...I don't know why I try to deny it but Jason...I fell in love with you, I really did", I say.

"I thought I could also, fall in love. And I fell, in love with you! But you made me realize nobody can love a monster like me. To think I fell in love with you." He screamed in my face.

Our faces were streaked with tears. This wasn't fair.

"I thought I could become a better, a nicer person. But the truth hit me hard, nobody not even you can change me".

I did this to him. I made him feel this way about himself.

It was my fault and no one else's.

"Jason look at me...please". I lifted his chin so his eyes were in complete contact with mine. I tried to speak but no words came out, so I did the next thing I could to at least try and explain my feelings for him; I kissed him.

I leaned in and crashed my lips roughly into his taking in the moment. I love him, I really do. I bite his bottom lip gently and tug at his hair. This is what it should always be like, no fighting or yelling.

"I love you Chanel", Jason breathes through the kiss. I kiss him back softly, hoping that he knows this is my 'I love you too'. I pull back once I realize that my cheeks are damp. I look ahead of me to find a teary-eyed Jason.

"What's wrong?", I ask with as much sympathy I can muster.

"I fucked up...I fucked up so bad...I'm so sorry Chanel I regret it so much and I love you so so-". I cut him off and pull him into a tight embrace.

"I love you too Jason. You don't have to explain yourself to me. I already know you're sorry and trust me I agree you definitely fucked up...big time. But that doesn't change my feelings for you", I said staring into his eyes.

Jason had beautiful eyes, the kind you'd get lost in; and I guess I did. I had fallen in love...hard, and to be honest I seriously couldn't get up. Is this how love feels? Your heart fluttering when you see him? Feeling like it's your first every time your lips touch his? Being hurt when he's hurt? I don't what others' definition of love is, but I know for sure that was mine. And then I thought, if people were fire, I'd be a spark and he'd be a raging flame

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A/N: sorry this chapter was so short lmao I kinda had some writers block