The Curious. Dan Howell x reader

The Coffee shop Part 1

A/N: Hey guys this is my first fanfic hope you enjoy. :)

The thing about the fragile, they appeal to the curious

I've never really fit in. Not in any particular stereotypical group, never really in a group. Maybe called the exceptional weirdo, but hey it is what it is. I've always been that girl that was never the center of attention, never loved by all the boys, just the extra, the introvert.

The good thing about being me and all my flaws though, is being able to observe from a distance. I know that may sound weird but seeing as I am uninteresting in every way it's quite nice, quietly observing people and wondering if they could be psychotic, depressed, or just the happiest person on the planet, and since I am me I always go unnoticed, I usually pay more attention to people who continuously show up in places I visit, like school, or the coffee shop, etc.

But just because I find it nice and enjoyable to be the quiet, unnoticed, observer, doesn't mean I don't want to be the observed. I long for attention from another living person every now and then. From one person in particular. The boy with the chocolate eyes.

Ding

The bell from the door in the coffee shop released me from my daydream. Just a random person, maybe a passer-by or tourist. Oh well, irrelevant.

It's about 2.30 pm on this breezy Tuesday afternoon, I just sit here and wait. For what you may be asking.? Well for my favorite person to walk in. And today wasn't going to be any normal day, today I had planned on introducing myself.

Ding

So lemme tell you a story, one of my friends have decided that I was clinically depressed after taking notice that I cancel plans numerous times and when I didn't, mentioned how crap I look from bad self care. So, like a good friend, she took me to a doctor, then 11 months later BAM.! I'm suddenly seeing a therapist every week, it's not all bad in all honesty, I get to talk to who I trust and they give me advice on how to dig myself out of the hole my brain put myself in. But anyway, at my last session, I told her about a boy with chocolate eyes that have within time mused me. Then she told me it would be good to just introduce myself, and so today, for the first time since the session, I am going to interact with a human.

Ding

I look up to see that he has entered the coffee shop. Okay, it's go time.

¨Hello¨ he says with his deep voice to the counter lady as she took his order.

The plan is to wait until he sits down, hopefully.

I stare down at my phone for a while until I get startled by a familiar deep voice,

"Hello there," I look up to see them chocolate diamonds and that dashing smile.

"Umm hi-i-i there" I stuttered.

This isn't going as planned.

"Is this seat taken.?" he asked

"No go ahead" I reply

"Oh, thank you, Hi my names Dan by the way, I was wondering if you'd share this muffin with me"

I laugh, and accept.

"Now normally," he started "I have no intention in sharing my food but hey 'Try new things' right "

I giggle, well this had gotten off to a good start, he said something relatable.

"Sorry I haven't caught your name yet.?"

"Oh, (y/n)"

"Well (y/n), lemme tell you something, if that's okay"

"Yeah it's fine"

"I am incredibly anxious right now"

I tilt my head to the side, not quite understanding

"Well you see.... friends of mine, told me I needed to be more social, and as scary as it may be I have agreed to do that, and - please don't be offended," I chuckle "Well I chose you because I walk in here on a regular basis and I notice every time that you look very lonely and kinda distant, and that's much like me so, why not" he chuckles

Well he's not wrong

"Well dan, I am not easily offended , and you are actually quite observant, I am awkward, but I am also hungry, so let's dig into this muffin shall we"