When I met you all those years ago I took a risk. Not only was I already in a happy relationship, but I was planning my future with this man. If it wasen't for the long distance between us, this beautiful disaster never would of happend. Little did I know that day you approached me would of changed my life. Back in 2014 I was young and lonely; at my most vunerable point. I thought maybe your not so bad, this could be something. After all the shit I've been through I hoped you would help me forget, and you did. For a little while at least. The beginning of something great that spiraled out of control before we could even react. I love you so much, and I hate it. My main goal in life is to be happy. Everything I've worked for all these years is for my sanity. I just want to live a simple life with you. You say everything you do is for me, but when is the last time you actually tried to cheer me up when I break. I see other relationships and see how happy they are. We use to be like them, but what happend to us. Is this was life does to us? We both have been through some fucked up shit, but did that change us? Is this change for better or for worse. This pain I feel is almost unbearable, especially when you cause it. Knowing that you would rather go on a lunch date with another women than to spend time with your girlfriend of FOUR YEARS. It hurts so much. I don't know if I can move on from this. I put so much effort into this relationship and all i recieved in return was pain.
