Heart Strings

Part Four- Live Stream

The cameras were set up. The fans knew. Now all we needed was a full band, michael was in the toilet and luke was doing his hair. I rolled my eyes as we sat watching the clock go to our time to go live and once again, not being ready. I was behind the camera. Calum and ash were on their phones waiting and we suddenly her a flush of the toilet and michael come running out. Luke, still no where to be seen. I shout for him, and he appeared in the hall a minute later a comb still in his hand trying to fix his quiff. He reaches the couch (thank god) and I press record so it goes live for us. As usual, they faff about for 10-15 minutes then they actually give their news.

where we had planned to the cut, there actually was a cut out a few minutes before it so I walked in then. My heart was pounding. The boys created a hashtag for questions and I was eager with my phone out ready to read them all. I was so nervous. What if they hated me? Would the boys kick me out? Would they help me? Will I be someone the 5sos fam hate? I hope they like me. Ashton gave me a reassuring smile and said “its fine, don’t worry, they will love you” like he knew what I was thinking. It helped though. The camera came back on and the viewers started to go up. I looked down at my phone at the tweets and they were all saying ‘whos the girl?’ or something along the lines of that. Michael quickly said “okay we are gonna answer some of you questions now” after calum introduced us back to our viewers. Ashton read out the first question “okay so im reading here that a lot of you are wondering who this is” and patted my shoulder. I smiled and waved to the camera as ashton continued “she is, wait for it” and then they all screamed “OUR NEW MEMBER OF 5 SECONDS OF SUMMER!!!!” and ran about the room celebrating. We all sat back down luke nudged me to say something. I said “hi, Im Ciara and I play the ukulele” and smiled at the end. I looked at my phone and the only questions I saw were ‘why do we need a new member, 4 is fine’ and ‘whos Ciara, and why her?’ which made me smile drop. The boys carried on talking to the camera for 5 minutes as I just silently sat there laughing when they laughed. They signed off and I went into the bathroom and just burst into tears. Luke knocked on the door as he heard me crying and asked if he could come in. I said yes and walked over and unlocked the door. He hugged me and let me cry into his chest and when I calmed down a bit he asked “Ciara, what’s wrong?” with a worried look on his face. I told him about the hashtag and how the only questions I saw were hate towards me. Luke hadn’t looked at them yet but when I told him he got his phone out and tweeted “right enough is enough, none of you hated ashton when he joined so why do you hate Ciara? She has said like 2 sentences to you guys so you don’t even know her! She is really really nice and she deserved to be chosen, she is amazing at ukulele, so stop giving her hate okay? Love you @Ciara5SOS” (I changed my twitter account name after the boys dmed the girl asking if she could change it.) he out his arm round me and comforted me and kissed my forehead. When I looked up and said “thank you luke, you didn’t have to post that” but he replied “no I did Ciara, you do not deserve to be treated like that. They have known you what like 5 minutes and they think that’s enough to post hate on you?” I looked up at him and he looked at me and we both leaned in and…