Songs I Write | II

The Last Day

I bite my nails
And I bite my tongue
Knowing I'll fail
Before the night's done
I don't know where
I'm supposed to be
I don't know what I'm
Supposed to feel

If this is the last time
If this were the last day
I'd live it trying to smile
But why if this is all I can't take

I brush my hair
I brush my teeth
I hush my demons but they
Don't wash away
I don't know who
I am anymore
Who was I? Before you
Who was I before any of this? Oh

If this is the last time
If this were the last day
I'd live it trying to smile
But why if this is all I can't take

I shed some tears
I shed some blood
I shared too much, I fear
That I've lost myself to the flood
I cry all the time
But I also never do
I lie all the time
But this once I'm telling you the truth

If this is the last time
If this were the last day
I'd live it trying to smile
With all the condescending looks I can't take

But it's not the last time
And it's not ever the last day
I'd breathe but I can't find
The breaths I left behind with all that I can't take

It's not the last time, it never is
It's not the last day, it never ends
I'd live it trying to smile
Live it like I'm fine through the wrong lines and mistakes

But I find the perfect alibi
Just in time, the last page
Repeating over and I try to try
But why if this is all I can't take

Oooh (oooh)
Oooh (oooh)
Oooh
Yeah (oooh)
No (oooh)
I can't take this anymore
No, no