Chaménos

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"Dito ka. At baka masagasaan ka." He said, while holding my right hand. I just nod and smile, sweetly.

I thought that the long wait is over, but now he's leaving again. The first time he left me is the most heart breaking for me. I cried every night to the point that my eyes swollen for a week.

"Are you okay, Cassy?" I swallowed the lump inside my throat.

"Y-yeah. I'm okay." I lied.

"I missed you so much and I'll miss you." Then he hug me tight. I always remember the moment with him. I remember the day when we ride rollercoaster at Park I almost cry but he comfort me. I remember the day I ate with him in a restaurant. I remember everything. And that makes me feel sad so much. I want to tell him that I love him. He's the guy that I love the most. I want to say to him that I want him to stay.

"Aalis na naman ako." He sigh.

"Kaya nga 'e." I said trying not to cry. I always holding my tears when I am in front of him. I always say that I'm strong because he always want me to be strong.

"I want you to be strong dahil wala ako sa tabi mo. . ." I just nod and wiped my tears to hold it back.

"Don't cry, my princess." He hug me tight. I just swallow the lump inside my throat. I want to cry out loud but I don't want him to think that I'm weak.

"I will miss you so much when you leave." I said.

"Sabi ka naman sa'yo diba. Kailangan ko talagang umalis." He let out a heavy sigh.

"May gusto ka bang ipabili bago ako umalis?" He asked.

"Wala. Ikaw lang naman gusto ko. Pero pwede mo rin naman akong isama kung gusto mo." I said and lower my head.

"Tch. You really a hard headed brat." Then he laugh, carelessly.

"Bakit ba ayaw mo akong isama?" I asked.

"Because because. Hahah." Then he smile.

Sana kasi pwede kong ihinto ang oras. Sana gan'to na lang kasi palagi. Kung pwede lang sanang lagi ko siyang makasama. Edi sana masaya na ako sa buhay ko. Kuntento na gan'to na lang. Di gaano ka hirap. Hindi gaano ka lungkot pero nandito siya sa tabi ko. He makes me happy. I feel loved when he's with me. I feel complete.

"Mukhang ito na pala yung dulo. . ." He said look on the Train station.

"Aalis ka na ba talaga? Aalis ka na ulit? Iiwan mo na naman ba ako mag isa? Kailan ka babalik?" I asked still trying not to cry.

"I will be back. . . Soon." He said then walk away.

"P-pero. . ." Our eyes met. I saw he's tears but he still smile to me.

"I will be here until you decided to stay. I'll wait that time and when that time comes I'll hug you tight and never let you go. I love you. . . I will always love you, Papa." Then my tears fall.