Harry Styles Imagines

Not Worth It

And then, she left him. She distanced herself so far away from him until it was as if she was never apart of his life. She ignored him and all his attempts to reach out to her again. It hurt her tremendously, knowing that what they had together was completely and utterly helpless, but she never questioned how Harry felt about it. She did what was easiest for her and never thought about it twice. She left him so that he can be happy, but as he stands so tensely and confused before her, she can't help but blame herself what's happened between them.

She nods her head softly, still refusing to look up at him as she gathers all the used glasses in front of her, making herself seem distracted so she doesn't have to make much effort into speaking to him.

"I—uh, yeah. Friday nights were getting hectic and I couldn't keep up with the late hours. I thought Savannah told you."

It's a lie. A shitty, impulsive lie that Harry almost finds humorous. Of course, Y/n switched her Friday night shift. She felt as if she had no choice. She couldn't bare to look at him with Savannah another goddamn second, and he thought of spending Friday nights with Harry without being alone with him and going to the 24-hour movie theater together was enough to make her sick to her stomach.

"She did," he clicks his tongue, eyes narrowing as he watches her scramble around the bar, "didn't have to, though. I knew she was lying."

Y/n's actions halt for a moment, a feeling of dread flowing in her veins before she goes back to cleaning off the bar, disregarded his statement completely.

Harry knows Y/n's been avoiding him, she hasn't exactly made it as subtle as she thought. Their entire friendship changed, and Harry knows he wasn't the one ruining it.

The morning after Y/n drove Harry back from the bar, all he could really remember clearly was falling asleep with Y/n. There were other bits he remembered, but that was really the only moment that came to him when he woke up. And he was confused when he woke up alone because, in all honesty, he was looking forward to waking up next to her. It was all his drunk mind thought of, and that terrified him.

When Y/n started distancing herself from him, Harry kept wondering what he had done wrong. She was fine with Savannah, keeping up with their lives as usual. But she was different with Harry—closed off, in a way, and it made him feel something he's never felt in his life before.

He was confused, to say the least. Because when he was kissing down the bare chest of the woman of his dreams, he couldn't stop daydreaming about Y/n, and how he hasn't heard her voice and how he hasn't felt her in so long.

He had Savannah wrapped around his finger, yet he still felt as if everything about it was wrong. He changed when Y/n left him, because even when he was around the most loving company, he felt alone.

He was helpless. As much as he tried to love Savannah, Y/n was always in the back of his head. She was there, all the time, trapped in his mind with no escape route.

At first, he was confused—upset and lost without Y/n. He didn't know life without her would feel so lonely, so empty and incomplete. It was strange, not knowing how to live his life without her. He'd never expected her disappearance to be such a hindrance to him, but it was. Oh, how it was.

Then, he was angry—angry because as many times as he tried to get her to speak to him again, she never came back. She was gone, forever.

Now, he's hurt. So damaged by her leaving his side, so incomplete and destroyed without her with him anymore. His heart is heavy with sadness and he couldn't let himself feel this way anymore.

He needs her, no matter how wrong and pathetic it sounds, he needs her.

"So you gonna tell me why you've been avoiding me, or am I gonna have to force it out of you?" he seethes, nose flaring as he tries to steady his uneven breath.