morbid poems

the sanctuary of dreams (not revised)

Trying to fight the current

Trying to fight the tide

Keep getting pulled under

There's really no way to hide

The fact there's no chance

No way of escaping

No way to get out

But I'll keep on fighting

I'm not out for the count

The light had slowly faded

That night long ago

When I fought tooth and nail

Trying to get you to let me go

I bit and kicked and screamed with all my might

But there was no hope of winning that fight

It was lost from the beginning

I had, had no chance at all

All you did was play with me

And then you watched me fall

Deep into despair

And show me life wasn't fair...

All I did was pray, pray for the end

But god wasn't that merciful

Because you weren't done with me

You brought your friends

And they had a ride for free

Now that I'm numb

And wish its all over

I know its just begun

Because here you come once again

I can here it from my corner

The shadows cloak me as best they can

Trying to hide me form the horrible man

But nothing ever stops him

When he comes to this room

Nothing ever stops...

I can never escape this tomb

The pain and the tears

Nothing ever stopped for all of those years

But today times have changed

I fight for my freedom

He walks in and looks around

My figure by the door

Is silent No sound

I hold my breath

And prepare to strike

Here is where it end

all done in one night

the object in my hand pierces my skin

the grip I hold my anger deep within

all the anger from all the pain

lashes out I strike him again and again

the blood it falls

splashes against the walls

I cry tears of joy

The pain is finally over

The blood falls like rain

The agony of all those years...

They fall and fall with all my fears

Stumble towards the door

I feel dizzy, there won't be pain any more

I reach the threshold

stumbling over my own feet

I can feel the horrendous heat

As I lean closer to freedom

The light hits my skin

I sigh at the sensation

I had not felt within

I take some steps toward the light

Finally free at last

Free to live life and forget about the past

I get to the street and suddenly stumble

The horn blasts

And I'm in a jumble

The light flashes before my eyes

And the pain rips at my seams

I thought I had finally been free

But the truth is frighteningly clear

I died that day

On the pavement in blood

My taste of freedom

Not long lasting but good

I lived what I needed

But not what I would have liked

Life went well but only for respite

And now that's it over

And life has begun

I'm free to roam free

In the land of no one

My one personal place

Where no one is here

Alone at last

All is clear

So I rest in my bed

My new life before me

And the past is forgotten

It's the time to move on

I said to myself

As I jostled awake

And was back in my hell