"Yoongi should wear a snapback today, but backwards. That look is such a game changer."
I smiled at her tweet as it was a bit useful since I didn't know what to wear for the day. For some odd reason she thinks hats and bandana's look great on me. She says the weirdest things when I wear them. One day, I wore a bandana I posted it. Later I get a notification that she posted a picture with the caption "Yoongi in a bandana is such a concept." I had no idea what she meant but it made me laugh. She also seemed kind of flustered when I had it on so that was a plus. But, I don't really care about either accessory; I think i'm unnatractive regardless. I think hats and bandana's make my forehead look bigger but if she likes the way I look than i'll wear them for her.
Our relationship is a unique one to say the least. She sees me more than I see her, she supports any little thing I do, she even seems obsessed with me. I'm joking, but our relationship is a bit different. In some ways, you can say that I don't know her at all.
I scroll through Twitter again once I dress myself. I see some more of her memes online. There snapshots she took of me while I was acting a fool. I do get a bit embarassed at how ridiculous I look, but I know she's smiling as she looks at them. But I swear, she has no idea that I literally see everything she posts. From the not-so-appropriate Tweets that I secretly can't get enough of, to the cute pictures of me she posts with cheesy captions that make me hide my face.
I really do see everything that she posts on social media. She has no idea though because I never tell her. To be quite honest, I don't even think she knows I follow her. It's funny; we've been together since June 13, 2013, and she still has no idea of this. I'm not going to tell her. It'll be a surprise for the day we actually meet.
Although I don't think she'd like that surprise. I, on the other hand, will. I can see her flustered face already. She really has no idea how cute she is, or how precious she is to me. It could be because I hardly tell her, but I tell her every once in a while for a reason.
When I randomly show my love to her, she gets all shy and surprised. I like the feeling I get when I know there's a smile slowly forming on her face. I like the thought of her shyly smiling at the sweet things I hardly tell her. I like the butterflies we both get when I actually decide express my feelings. Despite the fact I hardly tell her these things and despite how hard it can be for me to finally say it, I never regret what I say. In fact, I wish the things I say were actually better. I wish my words were more touching. I wish that they would make her smile more and really feel the love I have for her.
But i'm not good at expressing my emotions through words, so I tend to do it through songs. She's the only person to ever hear my music. She tells me to send it someone all the time but I want to make my parents happy.
"How will you be happy if you only do what makes others happy?" She always asks.
'i only want to make you happy' is what I want to tell her.
