Why Me?

Chapter 1

Barry was currently at Star Labs trying to figure out a way to stop Savitar from killing Iris but it wasn't easy especially since everyone felt drained from doing the same thing everyday.
"why don't we take a break, you guys need it' Iris suggests while looking at Barry
"actually you guys go ahead I have to make a call" Cisco says while running to his workshop
"come on barr, lets go to Jitters" Iris pulls Barry out the cortex
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Barry's mood was lifted as he held Irises hand while they walked into the cortex but quickly stopped as they see someone they thought they never see again
"y/n?" Barry's voice was filled with confusion
you turn around and your eyes widen as you see Iris but you quickly smiled
"Hi Barry" you said genuinely
"what are you doing here" Iris asks coldly
"I was on my way to a date with my fiance when cisco called saying he needed help with some device so I thought I make a quick detour and help out I didn't think it would take this long I was trying to be out before you guys got back but um how are you?" you ask awkwardly as Barry's eyes never left yours
"fiance?" Barry blurted
"got a problem with that flash" everyone quickly turns around to see Savitar leaning against the door with his arms folded across his chest as he looked at you.
Barry pulls Iris behind him as he sees you walk toward Savitar
"y/n get away from him" Barry calls out to you
"Babe I thought I told you to wait outside" you peck Savitar on the lips and he smirks as he sees Barry's face turn red
"you were taking forever so I decided to check up on you to make sure you were okay, looks like I got here just in time" Savitar's eyes flicked to Iris who rolled her eyes at him.
"doesn't she look sexy Barry" Savitar says mockingly as he grabs your arm and twirls you around and Barry looks you up and down. You were wearing a black sexy bralette and matching underwear with a tight fitted see through lace dress that stopped at your knees showing off your smooth silky legs that Barry felt wrap around him countless times.
"wait a minute Y/n you're engaged to Savitar?" Cisco asks and you smile as Cisco and Caitlyn run up and hug you. The huge shiny diamond encrusted ring was beautiful and way much cheaper than Irises considering he stole it but Savitar kept that to himself.
you, Cisco, and Caitlyn still contacted each other since you didn't come around much ever since the break up with Barry. It was your 2 year anniversary when it happened, the night Barry told you he loved Iris. The whole entire time you were ready to take a new step in your relationship, Barry was ready to end it and you were so broken. you didn't go to work for weeks which made Cisco and Caitlyn search for you eventually finding you in your room holding a ball a fire with burn marks on your arm and if it wasn't for them you would've been lost from the world, Barry left you emotional unstable which was the reason you temporally lost control of your powers, once again thank you Cisco and Caitlyn.
yes you were a meta but you never told Barry considering you received your gift after the break up with him and the only thing keeping them at bay now is Savitar. Although he is a temporal duplicate of Barry you still loved him, he made you feel special and treated you like his goddess well technically you are his goddess.
'Y/n, do you even know what Savitar is trying to do?" Joe asks as he looks at you directly in the eyes he felt betrayed that you out of all people would be with the enemy.
but before you could say anything Wally flashes in front of you and grabs your arm
"He's trying to kill my sister" He says through gritted teeth and Savitar quickly pulls you behind him
"you sure you wanna do that wally"
"hey babe its okay, lets just go" you pull on Savitars arm and his attention quickly turns to you.
"you okay" he asks as he checks your arm to make sure you weren't hurt
"i'm fine I just want to go to dinner babe" Your voice was now a whisper as you felt Barry's gaze pierce through the side of your head
"hey wait y/n can you come back tomorrow I need to talk to you" Barry asks voice filled with desperation.
"No can do Barry, she's mine" Savitar says as he wrapped an arm around your waist and you put your head on his chest
"Goodbye Barry" and just like that you and Savitar were gone.
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The next day Barry walked into Star Labs and shoved the container of coffees into Cisco's awaiting arms and Caitlyn furrows her eyebrows at him
"what's wrong with you" she asks
"noth-"
"Hey guys" you say as you come bouncing in the room
"cute jumpsuit y/n"
"thanks cait-
"y/n what are you doing here?" Barry interrupts rudely
"You said you needed to talk to me so I convinced Savitar to let me come here today but make it fast I only have an hour to spare" you say as you fold your arms and tilt your head.
"guys can we talk in private" Cisco and Caitlyn nod their heads and walk out together mumbling about big belly burger.
"Now tell me y/n why are you with Savitar?"
"oh my gosh Barry not this again" you groan
"y/n he's trying to kill Iris"
"and what do you want me to do about it Barry, it's the only way he can stay here with me" As you say this Barry notices you look different from last night. you had bags under your eyes, your face looked a little pale and you looked slightly bloated.
"y/n we can find another way, you know as good as I do we accomplished many impossible things here at Star Labs" Barry runs a hand through his hair as you walk toward him
"Barry yes I know you guys accomplished many things here but you know as good as I do that when it comes to the timeline anything could go wrong you were the one who fucked it up anyway". Your voice was starting to get a little louder now
"y/n I know but just stay away from him please"
"No Barry I love Savitar okay, the only way for him to stay is by killing Iris"
"Iris will not die"
"I said something similar to that 3 months ago it went like Barry will not leave me for Iris but look where we are now" you look down as a tear slid down your face and Barry sees your left hand come up to wipe it away and he sees the shiny ring on your finger.
"you know Barry I was going to ask you to move in with me that night I was so in love with you Barry but you didn't love me you were in love with someone that didn't love you back until they figured out you are the flash... but this" you lifted up your ring finger
" this right here will never come off its a promise Barry a promise to Savitar that I love him and that I will never betray him and if you can't respect that then...the next time you'll see me is on infantino street when Savitar kills Iris West"
"y/n please"
"goodbye Barry" you quickly walked out the cortex as Barry sighs and frustration finds its way into him .