Love Me or Leave Me

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Well let my start of by explaining who I am..
My name is Tiffany, I'm a senior in high school and honestly going through a lot. You wouldn't believe the drama happening in my life, balancing a relationship that everybody thinks I'm not in anymore. Making sure he doesn't find out about my infidelity.... well technically I never cheated I'm still a virgin I just have a rush when I do...certain things.

Let me start of with what's happened so far. To start I've been dating my boyfriend for about 3 years going into the 2nd year he moved to California and it broke us. Before I would never cheat, but then again I can just be getting back at him....no I can't stoop that low... but I did. He was always flirting with other girls and texting them sending hearts...I hated it but what could I do, I was a girl in love with a guy who wanted me. When he left I found out what he did to me and started to do the same.  Honestly I found attention from guys when he didn't give me any and as harmless as it was sometimes I'd feel bad. But he didn't feel bad when he did what he did to me.
So he came back to NY and he graduated and is now in college. How can I trust someone in college when I couldn't trust them in high school.
Bullshit, bullshit just a bunch of bullshit...today I fill my days with texting guys that will give me the time of day sometimes I can be a bit self conscious...I know I'm not ugly I'm not sure. It's the summer time and I'm ready to be free and not worry about being cheated on but then again I crave his attention even if we don't talk everyday...I'm still in love, I still believe there's a way that we can be together.
I'm not sure if it's my heart or my brain that's wants to be with him but sometimes the heart wants what the heart wants

Okay, lol hey guys I've got this idea for a book I just need to know what you think so far I will continue with part two but please let me know how you feel about it so far😊✌🏽