"What? Now? Huh?!"
"Please... Don't discuss this matter here,Eric. This is not the proper place." said a pleading voice.
"Not in the proper place? Are you kidding me Mama? Huh?! This is the proper place and time! Let's stop this bullshit! She's going to die anyway! What's the purpose of wasting our money to her? We're not that rich to sponsor that bitch.."
"Eric! Don't say that! She's your sister----"
"Sister? Since when? Huh?! Tell me Mama, when was the last time that she treated me as her brother? Nothing right? She treated me like shit! She cares for everyone but not me! And now tell me Mama why should I waste our money to her? The doctor said that there's just a little chance for her to wake up!"
"No no no please.... Let's not give up on her..... She's your sister Eric no matter you deny her but she is your sister......"
" We are just connected because of our surname.... We don't have money left. Try to understand that Mama. We don't have money left. Pack your things now Mama let's get out of here"
"B--but what about your sister?"
"Let her be dead"
I open my eyes slowly when I heard the door closed.
Am I really that bad? That even my own brother condemn me?
I am burden to them.
I think.....
I should let this life go now.....
I don't deserve to be treated for I've done horrible things in my life.
I want to straighten things out.
I want to say sorry.
I want to be healed.
But how? My family give up on me. They've lose hope that I will be well again.
A soft knock disturb my thoughts. The a guy wearing a white coat approach me.
"You're awake"
I smile bitterly "I wish I will never be"
"Hey.... Don't say like that! You will be treated and run in the streets like the old times okay? Don't lose hope. You've taught me that."
"Did I?"
The doctor sighed "I think we should tell your family that you are already awake. Let's stop this thing. Let's stop pretending that ------"
"No. It's alright. Don't tell them please? It is my condition to you.. .."
"Your family deserves to know the truth!"
"And I deserve my privacy. I don't want to give them false hope that I will be well again.... ... I don't want to be a burden..... "
A long silence envelope us.
"Can you do me my last favor?Rex?"
"What is it this time?"
"Drugged me to death."
