Heart of a Boombox

Chapter 30: Wasn't Ready

The next day I went home. I missed home.

I walked over to my room and noticed a note. My heart dropped as I saw the name on it.

"Dear Venus,

     I had to leave. I had to go with my big sister, Rachel. She wanted me to go with her, and, since I've never really had real family, I left. Please know that I love you and that you will always be my sister. I never meant to leave you like this but...I'm sorry. I should be back in about 2 months."

Love Luca

My heart melted. I was hoping to come back home and tell him everything, but he's gone. I feel empty and lost. I don't want to stay here if I have no one to talk to or to be closer than me than ever, and Ana is close to having her baby boy; I don't want to bring her stress. I'm lost without my Luca.

So, I have decided to leave and stay with Aaron. No, we will not be boyfriend or girlfriend or friends with benefits. That was a one time deal, and we both understand the decision of not having any sexual contact. 

My parents understand my decision and have decided to send me money every week. I can't tell you how much I love them. I love them like we're blood related. My Parents.

I've been staying the extra bedroom for about 2 weeks. I have settled in quite nice and have been partying like crazy. Since I don't own a car, Aaron drives me to school, parties, and even to see Ana and the rest of my family.

Marco was off my mine until now.

I went to open the door, and there he was. Aaron was out buying food. He was leaning against the door waiting for someone to come. He was perfect. He had on a fitted tank top that outlined his abs, and his bisepts were huge and were calling my name and his face was glowing. He was made new and fresh. I think I'm going to faint. I was almost half naked and felt very self-conscious. I only had on a sports bra and some booty shorts. 

As I thought about everything running through my head, Marco was talking to me, but his words were mute. I suddenly understood. I was fainting and was barely breathing. 

Blank. My mind was blank. 

I woke up in my room with a person at the side of my bed with his face in his hands. I moaned from the pain of my back aching. I could tell that I didn't hit the floor because the back of my head didn't hurt. 

"Hey." His voice was soothing and made me melt. "Are you o.k. because you fainted and fell, but I caught you."

"Yeah. I'm alright." I sat straight up and noticed that Aaron was still not bac, meaning that it was just me and him. "Why are you here? Why did you come to his apartment?"

"I was looking for Aaron. He said that he would help me move in." My eyes popped at his words, and my poor stomach curled into knots.

"What?" My face was not convinced that he would be living in the same building as me.

"I'm staying across the hall because my parents said that I needed to fend for my own, but they're still sending me money. Aaron recommended it." 

"That Jackass!" My mind started to speak the truth.

The silcence began to fill the room as I started to take in his response. 

"Why are you here?" He broke the silence with the worst question ever."Wait...you stay with Aaron?" His left eyebrow was arched high as the question slipped from his lips.

"Yeah. I've been here for about two weeks. Yeah, this is my bedroom. So, since I'm still half naked from getting out of the shower, I would like to put on some clothes." The request startled him.

"Yeah. Of course. I'll be in the living room." He quickly walked out the room and closed the door behind him.

I scratched the back of my head with disappointment. I should have known that I would have to see again, but I wasn't prepared. 

I put on a tight blue tank top and some basketball shorts. I slipped on my slides and opened the door. 

Once I walked out, I saw Aaron sitting on the couch besdie Marco. "Hey Planet."

"Hey Air-head. Um...I think I'm just going to go back to my room now." I pointed backwards to my door. 

"No. Come on. Sit with us." 

"If there isn't a bottle of Ciroc right there, I'm not staying."

"Same old Venus." My body jolted from the comment coming from Marco who winked at me.

Why did he wink at me? Why did he mess up my day before it even started? I...I...still love him? I think i still love him, but I'm scared to get hurt. I'm scared of the unexpected. I don't want to go back, but, when I saw him, I felt happiness and pain at the same time. 

I want him.

No I don't.

No I do.

No I don't.

My head started to battle about what it wanted and my heart. 

I don't even know if he is still with Brooke. If he is, he would have never winked at me, right?

I get up and sit by the door to hear their conversation, but it's a blurry kind of code that I could just not decipher. 

As I was sitting their trying to listen, The door tried to swing open, but my mass held its composure. Marco stuck his head through and took a look at my foolish activity. 

"What are you doing?"

"I was just..." I was cut off by his offguard comment.

"Trying to listen to our conversation."

I sat their with defeat as he squeezed in my room and offered me a hand. I took it.

He pulled me up in his big strong arms, and I flung into his chest. He was just staring at me. He was looking through my torquoise-grey eyes and was staring into soul.

"What?" I tilted my head to the side and gave him a slight smirk.

"I...I..." He stuttered in between words, when suddenly Aaron came in. 

From instinct, I immediately pushed myself back away from Marco and looked to the floor. 

"Are you coming or nah?"

"Yeah. Bye V."

"Bye Marco."