Now as yet another one of my lives is coming to an end, I've come to realize just how unfair this world can be.
Life after life, from the time I was just tengu to when I was I knight, to when I was an ordinary man...Ichimatsu rejected me every single time.
In the end, all I wanted was to be loved by someone. But my wish never came true. And was it such a hard wish to be denied countless times?
Love is such a fragile thing, perhaps I was too strong for it. Perhaps my strength to keep living- continued to break the emotion into millions of pieces.
As of now, I have many more lives to live. Until my desires are fulfilled, I will never be allowed to be anyone else.
Even by saying that, through time, it seems as if I've lost a little bit of myself. Though, I'm not even sure what I had to lose in the first place. Scum like me are the lowest of the low. The worst cannot get worse, and yet I have.
No matter how many times I've tried to cease existing, I'm just brought back to this endless cycle. I can't say I've hated it though. Even if I will always be rejected by Ichimatsu, I still manage to love every second of it.
Falling in love with him was the best feeling I ever experienced. And I'll do it again and again until the end of time- until there are no more rejections ahead of me.
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Absent Love
Fanfiction"No matter how far I extend my love out towards you, you never once cared to even reach out just a little- to return the love I felt for you."
