I deserve better than love

the wait

It had been a entire night and I hadn't  received  a text from the mysterious  Alan guy I met at work. The entire night I have been unable to sleep  twisting and turning anxiously  hoping any text that  came in my phone was his. The following morning  I woke up early just to check if he had texted and sadly I didn't have any messages  so I woke up with disappointment and went to do my house chores  to keep my thoughts away  from  running to the glances we stole of each other. After completing my hygiene ritual  ,I decided on organizing a hook with one of buddies to help me  get rid of the sexual tension I had.James who had always been up to tend to my sexual needs  under any circumstance walked in my apartment with  a tee that  hugged his muscles  .The moment we made eye contact I could see that he was filled with as much lust as I was feeling. James  hugged me and  his  scent was inviting whilst the long hug, he whispered into my ears with  his low yet sexy voice  that  he wanted all of  me. This filled me  with lust  and I didn't respond afraid my voice would  expose  my  intentions. James slowly started rubbing on my sensitive pearl whilst  attacking my lips with his. His free  hand was  tearing of the little material of clothes I had on my body leaving me naked  as the day I was born. I was never insecure about my body  yet  he treated it like a goddess .His young traced my thighs all the way up to my nipples which were hard, his mouth found its way on my left   breast and his teeth slowly nibbling on my nipple .James had my nails  dug in his breast  once he had finished  teasing me he pulled down his pants reveling his manhood that almost reached his  knees in length I couldn't help but  stare everytime we hooked up .i knew I could handle three quarters of it. James spread my legs apart  asking for entrance whilst his hard grazed my thighs  ,once he entered a bit of him I couldn't help but moan his name out. His strokes started out slowly but  it turned rough whilst kissing my neck which made me wonder if Alan could tame  my pearl like that .Thinking about him made me want it harder, so I turned our bodies and I ended up on top. I started  riding him yet my mind was wondering how Alan would touch me.the thought of him was constantly  creeping up .James snapping of my daydream I was having asked me if I wanted to continue  but I said  no because I didn't want him to feel like his d game was disappointing me yet it just  felt as if the sex wasn't helping me get my thoughts off him. James  got dressed  after I explained and  claimed he understood  but I could see perfectly that I broke his ego. After he left I grabbed my phone to see if he had texted  ...