The Heart

Heartbreak

It's hard to explain. It feels like a train wreck at first. Like something just stabbed your chest for no given reason. It feels like everything is going by and you can't stop it.

Everyone experiences heartbreak. I can't tell you how you felt but I know what I felt.

I felt like my heart was being ripped out of my chest and my body was just supposed sit back and be normal.

You see after my heart nuzzled in the place that it had previously called home it refused to come back. It left with them. Up and left without a trace. Except, their heart was here with me. The heart I had cared for and nurtured. I made sure it didn't break or get hurt. And mine wasn't coming back. After two months I let their heart go. I never did find out if they were okay. But my heart didn't come back yet. Fast forward another two months and it crawls back. It had to drag itself reluctantly. It stared at me like I was nothing to it. It stared at my soul and looked away disgusted. It no longer wanted me to be its home. I'm just temporary for it.

So, it tried to like someone else. But the other heart already had another in mind so mine had to get over it. It wandered around aimlessly looking for a cure to this situation. Clearly there was something wrong with its host. It crushed itself. Unwilling to except patience.

It walked along a lonely path. And came across an old home. One that was safe, dry, quiet and cozy. It went inside and felt perfect. But it was weary of the owner. Because who would want this damaged thing. It had been roughed up by its past and even by this owner. But that was also its fault.

It didn't leave but it wasn't exactly there thinking it would stay forever. This home was a crutch. Something to fall back on. So the heart still wandered. It looked everywhere and saw nothing.

It looked in the mirror at itself. It had given up. It wanted to lock itself up in a tight container. Never to see the light of day again. But that wasn't possible. Because a human needs a heart right? Maybe. But this heart had had enough. In the blink of an eye it went away. Never to light a smile on its hosts face again.

This didn't bother the host. But the passion that came with the heart was gone.

This isn't the end the heart wanted to believe. However, it's no beginning either. There will always be an in-between.