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Chapter 22: If We Could Only Turn Back Time

A week wasn't enough for me to think about the book since every night when I get home from the uni, all I do is cry my heart out.

I'm not missing the people I had when I was with him, I didn't care about the attention they gave me, all that I miss is Harry's love. Everything about him completes me. In record, Ellie said before that our relationship is so strong no one could ever break us apart.

Two weeks has passed since the time that I finished my story and tomorrow will be May. I may have move on a bit but I'm not losing hope that when we meet again, he'd remember me and everything will come back.

I lied to Ellie that I have high fever so I can't come to the university and I told her not to visit me since I wanted to be alone but no one knows that today, I'll be going to Footprints to submit my story to them for printing.

I took a cab going to Footprints. Inside, I went on Twitter and checked on Harry's tweets.

Vine, photos of food, places, people. That was on his timeline, our photos weren't there anymore, his simple and sweet tweets to me are gone. My Twitter as well.

I know I have borrowed him but I need him more, it wasn't enough, I felt that we were perfect for each other, it wasn't a dream, it felt like true love.

"Tara Harper Shaw." I say to the front desk and the lady tells me that Ms. Johnson is available so I went in the elevator and went to the sixteenth floor. Glad that I'm with some people inside the elevator, I remember when Ellie told me that I haven't change and I'm still that claustrophobic sh^t she met.

I quickly walked out of the elevator and asked at another desk for Ms. Johnson, they let me in and she was sitting on her chair.

"Good day, Ms. Johnson." I say and she looks at me with a smile. "Ah, Ms. Shaw. Very nice to see you. How is the story?" She asks me as she points her hand to the seat on my left. I sat down and smiled to her.

"Ms. Johnson, I've finished it already. Just in time for printing." I say. "Brilliant." She smiles. "When are you going to give the copy to us?" She asks. "Right now." I say and handed to her the USB where the file is.

"The whole story is in there from the dedication to the last chapter. The book cover is also included." I say and she seemed impressed that I have submitted it early than expected. "I'm impressed. Very early." She says with a smile. I knew it that she's impressed. "Can I request if it is possible to be printed before the boys come back from tour?" I ask. "Of course. They will be back here on June..."

Ms. Johnson just repeated what she has told me before. A portrait of the boys that was hanging on the wall caught my attention. They were holding their book and the next frames were the other authors who wrote individual fan fictions to each boys, Mary Evans with Zayn and Niall, Merida Nelson with Liam and the five of them, Tawnee Green with Louis and the five of them as well.

"Ms. Shaw? Are you listening?" She says loudly to me and I nod. "Y...yes. I am." I answer. "Yes, and, you'll be touring with them since you'll be doing book signings like what the other authors did before." She says with a smile. "I've noticed you were staring at the photographs on the wall, don't worry, you'll get to be there soon. Oh, with Harry Styles also." She adds and she seemed excited. "Be careful when you meet Harry soon, he bites." Ms. Johnson says with a laugh. "No, he doesn't." I answer and she stops. "No, I mean, I don't... I don't think he would." I say.

Ms. Johnson laughs and before I go, she tells me something.

"You'll meet them as soon as the book gets finished. We will be calling you." She says as she leads me outside.

"Thank you so much. I'm looking forward to...work with them." I say and I walked away.

I walked outside the building and saw someone familiar inside so I went back in and it was Harry.

"Harry... Harry!" I ran to the guy who was on the front desk and as I was a few inches away from his back, he feels my presence. "Harry." I say and he turns. "Yes?"

It wasn't him. "Oh, gah, I'm so sorry. I've mistaken you for someone." I say and walked away.

Ellie said they'll be back in a few days, I'm hoping that I could still see him somewhere here.

I went back to my flat and took a rest.

I don't want to over think today, summer break is within four weeks and all I have to do is focus until I haven't seen Harry yet.

Ellie sends me a message and I read it.

"Lads are coming home tomorrow."

She says and I didn't reply. I let myself sink in the bed and sink in the memories. I miss Harry.

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"Hello?" I answer my phone while I'm about to leave my flat for uni. "Hi, Tara." "Calum, I told you not to call anymore." I say and walked out of my flat. "Tara, come on, it was just a small thing. We can talk about it, love." He says. "Don't you ever call me love." I say and walked out of the building. Calum was standing beside his car and I end the phone call as he sees me.

I walked away and he follows as he shouts my name.

"Tara! Tara! I want to talk with you." He says and pulls my arm. "You're hurting me!" I say and slapped his face. "Calum, I don't want to talk to you anymore!" I say. "What is wrong with you? Tara! I've been silent for two weeks. I gave you space. What else? I just want you back with me." He says and he just disturbs me. "Can you stop?! Calum I am so sick of your...of your sh^t!" I say. "Tara, I love you." "I don't!" I quickly respond. "Why? Are you dating someone else? Is that the reason?" He says as he walks towards me. When he said that, only one person came in my mind, Harry.

"Calum, let's just stop this." I calmly say. "I'm serious. I'm breaking up with you. You know how I hate it when my idols get insulted and my own boyfriend does it." I say. I wanted to be calm since Harry came in my mind. "Calum, if you won't accept who I really am, I just want to end this. In our relationship we've been having this love-hate thing that absolutely sucks. Well, mostly with the hate." I honestly tell him. "I can change." "I don't think that will happen. I've move on. I'm done." I say. "Moved on?" "Isn't what I've said is enough? Calum, it won't work if I, myself don't want to." I say and he was speechless. I took two steps behind and walked away from him.

I take a bus to the uni and just stopped myself from thinking about Calum.

"Tara. Stop scrolling your phone and listen. Exams are in a week." Ellie says and I looked at her. "Harry tweeted." I tell her. "Is it about you?" She asks. "No. They're home." I say and locked my phone. "You gotta focus, love. When exams are finished, you can now think about the book." She says.

"I went to Footprints and gave it to them already." I say and Ellie looked shocked. "They're printing it already." I say. "When did you gave it? You didn't tell me!" She says in a whisper. "A few days ago." I answer with a smile and Ellie felt so bad that she didn't came with me. "I didn't want to tell you about it." I say as I stop myself from laughing. "Tara! You should've have. Gah. This isn't funny!" She whispers. "I'm sorry!" I answer. "Uh, it's fine. It's the first time I saw you smile after weeks." She says and I nod. "You should treat me Chinese after." She says. "Sure. I'm starving." I say and looked back to our lecture.


It was night when I got home. I took a shower and wore my pajamas on. I sat on my bed with my laptop. I read my story from the beginning.

My dedication just makes me laugh than cry now.

"To the boy who introduced me to Ed Sheeran. xx"

It was really memorable meeting Ed and being with Harry at the same time. The memories doesn't make me cry anymore, it just makes me smile and miss them all.

"TARA GO ON TWITTER RIGHT NOW I AM CRYING @ONEDIRECTION"

Ellie sends me a text message and I then get nervous. I didn't reply and just went on Twitter, logged in and went to One Direction's account.

"We're about to complete the fan fictions! #1DFanFics 1DHQ x"

They tweeted ten minutes ago.

I don't know if I should be excited or not. Have they finished printing it now? They told me they're going to inform me when the book is finished but they're surprising me with the tweets.

"The Harry Styles fan fiction is written by @tarashaw and we can't wait for you all to read it! 1DHQ x"

"Visit onedirectionmusic.com/fanfictions to read the official fan fictions written by our team. 1DHQ x"

I'm overwhelmed. I'm very happy they have noticed me now. My follower count is now increasing and people are tweeting about my fan fiction. This really makes me smile. They haven't reveal the title yet and it just adds thrill to the readers.

"The last fan fiction! Gonna be complete soon ! Looking forward to meet @tarashaw !"

Niall tweeted and a massive smile was drawn in my face. It made me feel better.

"Heard about Harry's fan fiction will be out! Amazing! Welcome to the team ! @tarashaw :) x"

Zayn was next and I just fangirled again. I'm somehow back in my natural state which is really funny that I was crying a few days ago and now I'm laughing and fangirling around.

"everyone grab a copy of @tarashaw's Harry styles fan fiction sooooooooon welcome to the team tara x"

Liam tweeted and there was just one tweet that I've been waiting. Harry's tweet and it's still not coming.

"Almost complete! can't wait to tour with @tarashaw and her book!"

Louis says and I'm still waiting for Harry's tweet. I will feel relief when he tweets now.

"Ellie, the boys are tweeting me!" I say and she squeals over the phone. "Tara I am so happy for you! Blimey! Look how excited Niall is! Bring me to the London book launch, please!" She begs and I laughed. "Of course. I'll bring you when Ms. Johnson calls me soon to meet them." I say. "Harry haven't tweeted yet." I add and refreshed Harry's twitter page. "Maybe he's busy, or sleeping." Ellie answers. "Why didn't he tweet first anyway since it's his fan fiction?" Ellie asks and I refreshed the page. "I don't know. Don't you think he likes it?" I ask her and Harry's twitter had one new interaction.

"Long day ahead for sleep."

Harry tweeted and I felt disappointed.

"Did you see Harry's tweet?" I ask Ellie. "Long day ahead for sleep? Yup." She answers. "I don't think he likes it." I say. "I'll just call you for progress. I have to rest." I add. "Okay, see you tomorrow. Focus, Tara. Good night." Ellie says and I said good night and ended the call.

"Are you not really going to tweet about it?" I talk to my laptop. I closed it and turn the lights off and left my lamps open. I opened Twitter on my phone to thank each of them.

"@NiallOfficial Thank you so much! Can't wait to release it soon! :) x"

"@zaynmalik Thank you Zayn! Thanks for the welcome! Looking forward to work with you. :) x"

"@Real_Liam_Payne Liam! Thank youuuu! I also can't wait! :D x"

"@Louis_Tomlinson looking forward to tour with you boys as well! Thank you Louis! :D x"

"Thanks to everyone especially to @onedirection and @footprintspublishing! Can't wait for the release!"

"Bed now. Good night!"

I tweeted and smiled as I breath out. Great feeling of being tweeted by the people I love. I refreshed my Twitter again and something caught my attention in my timeline.

"Heard about my fan fiction will be out soon! Thank you @tarashaw I can't wait to see and work with you soon."

Harry tweeted and I sat on my bed and smiled as tears flow down from my eyes. Finally, he tweeted.

" @Harry_Styles Thank you and you're welcome. :) xx"

I tweeted and smiled. We will see each other soon. I also can't wait to see him in a few days. I'll be seeing him again and I just can't wait.

"I have read the first chapter. It was brilliant. I can't wait for it to be printed."

Harry tweeted and I wasn't tagged anymore but I am still very happy. I'm already crying tears of happiness.