Fatal Attraction

Faded

I can't even look at him anymore without a lump building up inside my throat , do I speak ?do I smile? . The pit in my stomach stirs  , fast glimpse throughout the day it will never be the same as it once was . Fatal attraction is what had occurred and what once was there faded out  . The secure bond that once was shared lturns into fragments of abandoned promises. Though I warned him not to fall yet I fell along with him but he fell harder and faster and with falling that quick he stayed and fought as hard as he could but he also found the strength to pull away just as consistently as he fell . Glances from a distance our eyes meet faint smiles passed and within seconds you will have morphed onto the crowd swept away to a never ending hours of pointless maths , science and even history classes where you learnt about who killed who and what effected what . Little did you know how much you were effecting me .
Small talk and pointless conversations rules our lives now ,we use to connect we use to talk and communicate it's like we no longer know the meaning of connect . You jumped in head  first into the water of which we will refer to as us whereas I stayed on the side lines dipping my feet getting use to the water before I was engulfed but before I had even let myself remain in the water you were already gone . The feeling of drowning with no hope clouded my mind or do I let it go .