Help can find you here

But Why

I am here. I am important. There are people who care about me.

"Is that you Annie? Why are you sitting in the dark?" 

It's Syrus. Syrus cares about me right?

"Yeah it's me." My voice is very shaken.

"Are you coming out to celebrate?"

"What in the world could I celebrate?!" They should be having a memorial is anything. Not a party.

"I know." But he doesn't.

"Look, you can go out there and celebrate but I'm staying here. You can stay if you want to but you won't change my mind." He slides down next to me and I test my head on his shoulder. 

"Would it be bad to just stay here forever?" He gives a small laugh and kisses me on the head,

"As much as I love it here, yeah it probably is." I already know that it is. 

"Hey, is anyone in here?" I lift my head up. It sounds like Hayden.

"Yeah we're back here." He comes and slides into the spot next to me.

"I thought I'd probably find you in here. You doing ok Ann?" I shake my head, I'm really not fine.

"Hey Syrus, mind if I talk to her alone for a minute?" He didn't even have to ask.

"I thought that I was over it. I thought that I had moved on." I feel the same way.

"I always thought I was too. But the truth is I think we both need a lot more time to heal. I found Syrus to help me heal, maybe you should fin someone too. But for now all I want is for us to sit here and enjoy each other. And remember him."

He squeezes my hand and I can tell that we both understood. We both loved him as much as the world would let us.