Just random rants and complaints I have and wanna get out :/

I still love you

She hates me so much. She doesn't know how much I hurt because of her. She's denying every offer I give her to not leave but she saying that it's because she's "sensitive" and "doesn't wanna hurt me" doing this though will hurt me so much more. I don't wanna start crying 10 times in one day again. I don't wanna have to deal with this again

I remember when I would send you a selfie on snow and you would spam my phone with love stickers and on my birthday you sent me a paragraph saying how much you loved me and if you lost me you would hate yourself. but you said you lost your love for me a while ago. did you not love me then. was that all a facade. were you just waiting for me to get upset in some way and start a fight between us to leave me because you hated me so much. i bet you did. i bet you never loved me. i bet you did this all so I would hurt so much when you left me