Busted And Blue (2D × OC)

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"I-I'll stay a bit... " I crouched down beside the bed and debated to take Clover's hand or not in mine.

I just don't want to hurt her...

"Faceache, nothing will come out of it. Now get your sorry ass out if there"

I felt Murdoc's eyes burning in me but I didn't care.  Why should I?

"You piece of shit, didn't you hear me? Get the fuck-! " "Mudz, come on. Don't be a dick for once just let D' be with her for awhile. "

I heard Murdoc grumble at the door then left with the others.

The light from the lamp and the door shone on Clover's face. Her eyes had dark circles under them. The squishy pink cheeks were now gone from the lack of food she's been eating. All colors on her face were gone, even her lips had gotten paler.

I gently placed my head at the end of the bed. Just then she turned around to me, though her eyes were closed.

She's sleeping... That's good...

Clover normally doesn't sleep these days, she just sits in bed and stares at the blankets till morning.

I whispered a small 'hi' to her. She scrunched her nose and eyes in discomfort.

"...nightmare again? "

Her arm came up from the blanket, she made a fist as she shook her head a little.

Yeah... Nightmare...

I rose my hand up and combs her hair with my bony fingers. She seemed to calm down so I just continued.

Her roots seem to have grown a lot ... That's something I haven't noticed before now. She really has a nice natural hair color.

Clover's eyes suddenly opened wide and looked directly at me. Her gaze was cold and empty. It pierced my soul but also went right trough it.

"Clover?  Whot are yeuw-? " before I could finish, she was already out of the bed and on her way to the bathroom.

Wide eyed, never blinking.

My heart sunk to the bottom of my stomach. I followed after her slowly not to frighten her to much.

She was standing in front of the mirror just looking at herself. Again, wide eyed never blanking... She leaned forward, touching the mirror with her forehead.

A white spot forms as her breath becomes more rapid.

I want to step in. I want to help her. Snap he rout of it, but I know I can't.
She's been doing this for 2 months now.

2 whole months without even the slightest hint of getting back to her senses.

I don't know what to do anymore. 

To her...

Or myself...

She doesn't speak, eat, sleep, she just ...let things happen and does things without realizing it herself.

At least thats what we think...

We have no idea what is happening to her.

Murdoc said something about her acting like this when her father died but never to this degree...

"Yeuw goin' back to bed luv?  Come, I'll help yeuw get ready"

Like she understood she wobbly walked back to the bed, me shortly after.

I gently guided her to sit on the bed and the rest was like a routine for us.

She held her arms out of me and I took her knitted sweater off her. I always gets struck by disgust when I see her naked frame nowadays  ...Her entire uoperbody is bandaged up even he breasts.  It makes me angry and sick thinking about what that mother fucker did to her...

I shake the thoughts away and get her a new shirt form my woredrobe on the floor.

After I've gotten her new clothes I lay her down and cover her in blankets and sit by the side of the bed.

I don't dare lie next to her, I'm scared to hurt her more...

A lightning struck and luminated the room, not soon after a strong wind came and bust opened one of my windows making papers fly everywhere.

I don't give two damns about the thunder seeing how it calms Clover and myself. We both love rain and thunder, it gives us a nice feeling almost.

Some of the papers gets over to me and falls in my lap. A little spark of joy fills me as I see what's on it.

It says;

Sleeping Powder

By Clover Niccles

" I didn't thank yeuw for writin' me a song... Thank yeuw, it really good Clover... "

She hummed in her sleep dug her head more in the purple pillow. It was so cute I could help bit smile.

I felt myself doze off bit by bit.

"I was gone with the self of the day,
gone

With the self of the day,
gone

With the self of the day,
gone

Gone, gone, gone

I was gone"