it's been a while, hasnt it? i hope you're doing well. how are the kids? kidding. i hope youre enjoying life, the way you always dreamed about. five years ago, it seemed impossible. i hope you figured it out. i hope you made it into a good college that wants you not because you lied or faked your way in, but because you were good enough to get in. i know you wont take that the wrong way. you know you are good enough. are you still friends with hal? justin? do you and allison still talk? i hope youre staying close to the people you love, and only the ones who care enough to love you back. i hope you learned who's who when it comes to people who care. are you studying marine science like you thought you would? did you even figure out how college works? i sure hope you have by now. are you still as impulsive as you used to be? did you learn how to use it for the things you wanted to before? remember? you wanted to say things without thinking first. you thought you would be able to make friends that way. i hope you found yourself some friends who care about you and want you around. i know you didnt think so before, but youre not so bad to be around. i promise. it must all sound condescending coming from a 16 year old, but i cant wait to see how youve grown. are you eating well? is your stomach better? did you clean up and get cute how you wanted to? what color is your hair now? what is your phone wallpaper? what does your favorite shirt look like? do you still listen to splash daddy? joji? samsa? who is your favorite now? are you keeping in touch with your family? how is lucas? do you still keep fish? what are their names? how is luna? are you still seeing a therapist? did you ever start medication? have you overcome your phobia?
do you know that im proud of you?
- you. (2017)
