We made it this far

Chapter 1

tyler wakes up in his apartment that he shares with Brendon, Ryan and.. Josh
he is so hungover, his head feels like it will blow up. he walks clumsily to his door and opens it to reveal that ryan is already awake, drinking some beer. he smiles at tyler and says
-hey there man, late night last night?
-my head seems to be blowing up.. since i broke up with jenna ive been drinking so much i could die
ryan looks at tyler concerned, and smiles faintly while approaching him to give him a hug. he feels a small tear falling onto his shoulder and pushes tyler away to reveal his glassy, filled eyes. he pulls out some paper and pre made joints.
-Cmon Ty, lets go on the balcony
tyler walks lifelessly while grabbing some paper and a small bag. he sloppily makes a joint and lights it up. he instantly feels better when he feels the smoke enter in his lungs, and then notices ryan staring the ground
-Tyler... have you ever loved someone? Like, loved LOVED someone?
tyler sighed. he thought about his relationship with Jenna.. and how many secrets he has hidden from her
-no. he said shortly. I loved jenna, but i can't picture a life with her.. Ryan. i have to tell you something.
-hm?
-i. uh-
Tyler stopped. he felt an anxiety attack. his heart was skipping beats. he couldnt breathe. he felt sweat dripping from his forehead. without saying anything else, he started running to the bathroom, while throwing his joint on the ground. ryan quickly understood and sighed.
"fucking bad past that he had..."
tyler opened the door and noticed that it was warm and the window was blurry. when he was wiping it, he heard a deep voice coming from the shower
-What the heck, tyler???
tylers heart stopped. he slowly turned around to reveal a naked, wet josh. his sculpted body was almost red out of anger. he had a small towel wrapped around his glory area, but his v line was still visible. Tyler turned around quickly, grabbed his pills from a cabinet and left without another word.
Ryan was laughing when he noticed a blushing tyler exiting the bathroom with a pill bottle.
-yoo tyler didnt know u had a thing for josh! he said jokingly.
-i... ye.. i mean NO!! uh..
-sure, you mumbling mess. take your pills and get here. you probably wanted to tell me something.
tyler did exactly as said, and went back on the balcony. he grabbed ryan's face and said, while staring deep into his eyes.
-Ryan. i need to tell you something that may shock you. like... really shock you