Diagnosis of Falling in Love.

Prologue.

DIAGNOSIS OF FALLING IN LOVE

(It's not really a kind of cancer or whatever. But you'll die eventually. Dying to be with her, dying of happines, and dying of loving her.)

For 18 years of living, akala ko dati ang pinakamasarap at masayang pakiramdam sa mundo ang ang maging masaya lang. Yung walang problema, siguro yung pinoproblema ko lang is how will I passed high school. Siguro yung sakit lang na nararamdam ko ay pag nagkakasakit ako. Yung lungkot lang na nararanasan ko ay pag nagkakatampuhan kami ni mommy or kung hindi ako nakakasama sa outing ng barkada. Ang pagmamahal lang na nararamdaman ko ay pagmamahal ng isang pamilya at ng mga kaibigan.

Well, I'm living a normal life as you could say.

I grew up living with a perfect family.
My dad is running his own company. My mom also works there pero not permanent, when she has to lang. My brother is going to her last year on Med School. And yeah, I was the only girl (except for my mom of course)

My 'living like a normal girl' life changes with I entered college.
I join the volleyball team. I made another family.
Lumawak yung mundo ko.

I meet someone that changes my life forever.

I felt what love is. I felt what pain is.
At doon ko lang nalaman na iba yung pagkakaintindi ko sa mga bagay na to dati.
Ibang-iba. Mas masarap to. Mas masaya to. Mas masakit to.

I think the hardest part about falling in love is that you no longer have control over your own emotions. One word, one look could change your entire day.
Whether it good or bad, someone has the ability to get inside your head, learn everything about you.

But I think the worst part is that you don't even have control over falling in love. It just happens, even if you don't wait it to.
It will either break your heart or it will make you feel alive.