Chapter 1
Everyone always thinks I am good because I smile.
I seem happy.
I help others with my knowledge.
So I must have an amazing life, and be oh so happy.
Well you are sadly mistaken my friend.
My life is far from a fairy tale.
I look in the mirror, and see a hideous monster.
I wonder how could anyone love me.
I am so fat, so ugly.
I see every flaw mirrored times a hundred.
I cry at times because I just can't handle it anymore.
I have been through so much, and those demons still haunt me every night.
I still hear everyone telling me I am worthless.
Telling me no one could ever love me.
Calling me fat, and ugly.
Those voices scream in my head.
They tell me I will never be good enough.
I have sit on my bed with a knife in my hand wondering who would miss me if I just ended it all?
Would the world be a better place without me in it?
I have friends that say how awesome I am, yet they never seem to have time for me unless they want something.
I have three kids that tell me they love me when I give them the things they want.
Otherwise I get yelled, and cussed at.
I married a man that chose me only because I said yes.
I am not the one he truly wanted.
He has cheated on me every chance he has got.
So really who the hell would miss someone like me???
this song fits how I feel right now thank you s_red_anime
