Joy

Voices

My name is Erick Rivera and I can hear voices even when no one is around. I started hearing the voices when i was young but they were distant like an echo so they never bothered me but when i became 17 they became more noticeable. I had to put my music to the loudest they can be just so i can drown them out. And its really irritating when I'm stuck in class and the voices keep speaking to me about what i should do. Sometimes they are helpful like memories where they will remind me the answer on a test or tell me what I should and shouldn't do from time to time but the voices to me are a curse not a blessing they are to loud and obnoxious filling me with insecurities about myself.
April 12 12:04
I walked out of class irritated at my teacher because she made a fool out of me in class. she told me to stand up in the middle of the class with my essay and present it to the class (which i had forgot to do) so I stood up seeing my beloved Jenny Carter in the sitting in a desk right in front me and i had to improvise quick. So i started rambling on about stuff i randomly remembered then i looked directly at Jenny and she gave me a reassuring nod and my heart skipped a beat I completely forgot what i was doing for a second and then I suddenly remember why I'm up in the front but at that moment the voices actually helped me out this time and started feeding me information on the topic we were supposed to research and that was one of the few times the voices came through for me.
I walked on seeing my friends Alan,Olivia,Jack,and Sofia. Alan was always the jokester of the group playing around with us and calling us names (not as in a bully way), Olivias was flirty and adventurous she always wanted to explore around the school,at creaks,or just go to a location she's never been or maybe just flirt with a random group of guys she doesn't  know, jack was the shy type around others or in large groups he doesn't know but with us he was always happy and energetic always wanting to try new things, and Sofia was always the motherly/sisterly type she always fussed on how I was doing how I was feeling or what I wanted to do we all sat down under a shaded tree on the grass Alan and Jack were roughhousing under Sofia packed me a lunch of a ham sandwich with the crust cut out.
"Have the voices been bothering you lately" said Sofia "They're not bothering me as badly they are now less quiet" i said Sofia is the only person I've  told about the voices besides your parents and therapist "are you sure they've quieted down?" Said Sofia "I think I would know if the voices in my head started annoying me more than they've done recently" I joked "well please tell me if there's anything you need like a pillow or an ice pack" Sofia replied "well I wouldn't mind a million dolloars" I joked again
*TIME SKIP FOR ALMOST AFTER SCHOOL*
April 12 2:19
I am now sitting on the edge of my seat waiting for a clock to spin 45 seconds more, concentrating hard so i can maybe speed up the time then the voices started talking "just get up and leave the class", "there's no reason to stay at all just leave", "aren't you just a wee bit thirsty why not get up and leave" i had to cover up my ears as hard as i can making myself like a total idiot around everyone else. Then when the bell finally rang the voices stopped I dashed out of the classroom because I didn't want to miss the bus for my therapist's appointment.