Why don't you smile anymore? That's a question everyone has asked me once in their lifetime. You see, I have gone through so much trauma that it's hard to even smirk anymore. I'm lucky if I will ever find someone that can help me feel at least a tiny amount of happiness or joy in my life. But it's all his fault. He's the one that took away the smile that everyone loved, the happy boy that didn't care what anyone thinks.
His name just happens to be Josh Dun. The minute you look at him, you wouldn't think that he would be the one to bully me. Josh looks so innocent until you get to know him, or fall to be one of his stupid little victims. If anything, I look as if I would be the bully. Serious face, dark eyes and hair, never smiles. Anyways, my name is Tyler. Tyler Joseph.
To Josh, I'm basically nothing but someone he enjoys to use as a punching bag. How could someone hate another so much that they are able to break them down like this? Making them feel worthless, useless, unimportant, and sadly they usually start to self harm. I fucking hate Josh so much that sometimes, it hurts.
I can't sit and draw anymore without Josh and his stupid gang coming up and start to make fun of my drawings. I can't talk out loud in classes, listen to music, or even have any fucking friends! But who needs friends? Not me for sure. Who would even want to be friends with someone like me? A depressed teen that ironically is a victim to bullying. It seems as if music is my only escape from this cruel world that we happen to live in. Josh is real. But am I? Am I just invisible to everyone but Josh and his gang? I'm just the kid in the back of the classroom that listens to music 24/7 and draws while not paying attention. Yet, I get some of the best scores on tests in the whole school.
Josh is my anathema. Don't know what that means? Look it up because it describes Josh and who he truly is to me.
*Short chapter, I know. Sorry if the bullying experience triggers any emotional feelings for anyone! I will try to update regularly mostly because this is my first Joshler story and I hope that I will be able to finish it before the year ends! -Ash*
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Anathema
FanfictionAnathema (noun) def* something or someone that one vehemently dislikes Tyler sees everyone and everything differently. But with that ability, comes hatred. But that mainly comes from the school bully, Josh. Why does Josh hate Tyler that much? A...
