Dear diary...
today was a good day :) had a great chat with sofia you see diary we have been making a new composition, im on piano sofia is on the drums, and Harmony is singing and Sabina is camera woman. these past couple of days havent been soo bad, you see i didnt cry once :) i think its because me and Joe arer friends.
Yeah diary i doo miss him ALOT!! you know i do miss him sending me sweet paragraphs and saying the most cheesiest lines to me, the phone calls we had hearing his beautiful voice..... But HAIII!!! at least we still talk... like EVERYDAY!!! which makes me even happier.
Diary, i dont want to move on if im honest, id like to stay single have some fun right. It's hard it really is you see yesterday me and MAT (<---- HE IS A DICKHEAD) argued and he basically threw all of the good things i had done for him away, like last saturday i was in town and i was willing to give up 4 to 5 friends for him, because i thought he was my best friend..... but it turns out he is a lieing little shit..... enough about him. Well i have a new band im starting to really love they are called Pop Evil.... the song Last Goodbye just reminds me of me and joe but i like it alsoo there is a song called 100 in a 55 makes me cry because it just explains how mashed up my heart is but its ok :)....
You see i smile, to hide the pain im carrying pretending things are ok, but only the people who really know me know that im hurting.... but its getting better i smiled alot today :) and now im listening to Pop Evil :) talking to you diary i might go out side as its a lovely day isnt it :) yup it is...
soo yeahh diary i think i better head off :) catch yeww later <3
Thankyou diary for saving my life <3
x x x Lauren x x x
