My diary

Tuesday 26th september

Woo! day one of my new diary. I dont know how often I'll write in here but I know that it's safe and secure. No one I know sees my Wattpad stories so I'll be ok I think.
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Anyways, today there wasn't a lot. First lesson was Graphics with Mr.Fink. The insane guy. He's absolutely mad. Which is amazing cuz I need a teacher that I actually like to enjoy what I love.. if that makes sense. He's so enthusiastic to learning and makes it so much fun. Today we were drawing teenager drink ideas. Just the bottle. I came up with something weird and it was blue. The label was green. But, we were told to fill the page and over lap ideas so I did that. And the page was a mess! That's a good thing apparently. Fink came around looking at what we were doing and told me that mine was absolutely amazing. I know he probably says that to everyone but when someone compliments me in anyway about my skills then I get really happy. I dont know it just makes me feel like I should carry on.
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I guess I should say this while I'm on the topic, I don't exactly know what I'm going to do as a job. Like a career. I was thinking a graphic designer but as much as I love it, it doesn't seem like something I would do. Not something I'd spend my life doing. Im heading towards animation or something like that. I dont know i just want to be something to show my skills. At some point I'm going to start making YouTube videos. I'm going to start with speed drawings. As I think I will show talents through artwork and, who knows, if I actually get higher in YouTube then I'll look back and won't have my dumb voice over it to cringe at. The only thing I'll cringe at is my bad art skills. I say that hoping to progress in art hugely. I'm always looking to improve and move upwards.
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I had science today. I was going to rip my eyeballs out of their sockets, I swear to god! I hated it. There was an accident in lab10 (my lab that I had science in usually) so we had to go to J2 (right next door) so we didn't have a seating plan. I was one of the first people in so I immediately ran to the back in the corner, grabbed a chair and moved it. It was a two seater desk like the others but I made it so it only had one chair just so nobody could sit next to me. I hate everyone in my class.
Within the first five minutes I've had 3 requests for people wanting to switch desks with me. I declined. Obviously. And I've had someone throw a pencil case at me. You can tell I was already pissed.
We had to answer the register in the middle of the lesson so I did. The teacher couldn't hear me and so I waved a hand at her. Right after I answered I heard people shout my name and laugh hysterically at it. (I don't get why.. it's a normal name.. it's Emily Chapman. Nothing wrong with it.) so yeah that was hell.
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I'm helping out in art on Thursday open evening. It's going to be amazing. It starts at 3:45pm and ends at 8pm. And the entire time we are doing still life drawing. I'm going to love it. The bad thing is one of my best friends is doing it with me. I should be happy with that... but.. it's going to start drama. Her names fleur. She's really nice and everything but my other best friend Emily absolutely despises her. She thinks that she's taking me away from her and there is so much drama. I don't get why Emily even cares. She's too interested in baby talking to Darren (her boyfriend) that she forgets my existence sometimes. Can you see how annoying and stressful this gets!? Lucky my third best friend josh is here for me.
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I got a text from Charlie today.. making me feel more guilty. Ok, so we were together or whatever bla bla bla. And at the end of middle school (last July) he said he wasn't going to my upper school. I didn't know what to do cuz we never met up outside of school and never texted each other because I was so weird and unsociable. So, at the beginning of September I realised that it wasn't going to work and ended it. He wasn't happy. I was thinking about it all summer because he has depression and has said that I always helped him and was the only thing keeping him going. I was scared of ending it cuz I was worried he'd do something to himself. But, the text today said "I miss you" with a broken heart and a crying face. I haven't replied because i dont know what to do. I'm trying to get over him because I don't want to get back together with him.
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anyways, that's all for today.
Have a great day and make sure to stay positive!

~jamie