The things I would do

part 1

1 For the love of god, do not lie or cheat.

 No matter how many lies you can make up, she will find the truth. So tell her before it gets to that point. Tell her even if it hurts her, because she'd rather hear it from you, than someone else. 

If you feel yourself cheating, S T O P. Put her in your place, and a guy in that girl's place. How do you feel? Jealous? Angry? Hurt? You should. Stop what you're doing, walk outside and call her. Or walk to her, if she's close. Tell her you miss her. Tell her what just happened and don't manipulate the story to erase your wrongs. Tell her you need help to not continue when you go back inside. If you know a situation is coming up with someone who has a crush on you, or vice versa, tell her. Text her every second of every minute of every day, be all over her if you need to be, but make it explicitly clear before a move on either side is made that you are taken, happily taken, and don't want anyone else ever.

2. Hold her hand

This is such a small thing, but reach out and take her hand in yours. Hold it, and fully appreciate what it means to hold her hand, because to hold her hand is to hold her heart as well. You are showing her you want to be seen as hers. It doesn't matter if the way you're walking or sitting makes holding her hand to uncomfortable; do it anyway because it might be your last time feeling her hand in yours, and holding her close. 

3. Pay attention to her. 

Don't run ahead, or walk to fast for her to keep up. Hold her hand, match her pace. Listen to what she has to say, make her feel yours. Kiss her on her forehead, her cheek, her lips. 

4. Cuddle her. 

I get it, you like to hang off the bed and not face the middle. But here's a fun fact: You've hung off the bed, faced away from the middle, for your whole fucking life. It's time to face the person you would literally die for, and find a way to hold her close, and sleep comfortably without facing away. If you want to face away and be spooned, ask her, and make sure it's not a day she's been more stressed out than usual.

5. Do things for her. 

When she asks for dinner, make her mac & cheese. When she wants tea, make her some. If she wants a bowl of ice cream, it doesn't matter why or if you're tired. Do it because it matters to here when you do, because you doing things like that shows you care.

6. Apologize.

If you snap at her, don't go defensive when she snaps back, or make excuses when she points out that what you said was hurtful. Admit you were wrong. Admit that you shouldn't have said what you said, or snapped at her. Admit that tiredness is not an excuse to belittle, and attack her. Say you're sorry, and don't do it again.