Jack POV
I've been getting lots of hate and it's really getting to me... not only that but I have a HUGE crush on Zach.. I'm scared to tell him, I mean he is the perfect but he is also straight, and anyway who would want to go out with an ugly person like me? Exactly, no one...
"JACK YOU COMING?!" Daniel yell/asks
"Where?" I ask
He opens my door and sticks his head in
"To the mall" he says
"Nah"
"Ok" he shuts the door and then I hear the front door shut...
Silence
I get my phone and go on Instagram and look at some on the new comments
Useless
Ugly
Fat
Horrible singer
Die
Worthless
Why do people like you?
How are you in a band?
Kill yourself
No one likes you
Fatty
Little shit
Loser
You sound like a dying bird
When will you die?
When someone says "jack" i gag
Ew
*throws up*
(I do not think any of this about jack he is an angel)
I sit on the bed, a tear runs down my face then a flashback from a year ago comes into my mind when I first told my parents about me being gay and liking Zach
*flashback from a year ago*
"Hey mum?"
"Yes Jack" she asks through the phone
"I need to tell you something"
"And what is that sweetie??" She asks with care in her voice
"I-I'm g-gay" I say, a tear rolls down my face
"What" she said sternly, she sounded annoyed
"I'm sorry" I apologise to her and i start crying
"I don't want anything to do with you ever again JACK ROBERT AVERY!! You are a mistake to the avery family" she says and hangs up
*Flash back finished*
I start full on crying
I run to the bath room, open my cupboard, grab the razor at the back and hold it above my wrist, I slowly lower it and start think while the razor drags across my skin, cutting it
'1. For being gay 2. For liking Zach 3. For being a mistake 4. For being ugly 5. For being me 6. For being alive'
Why me
I remembered about my best friend Louisa, I decided to talk to her, I got up, wrapped my arm, out everything neat again, I walked out and tommy phone, I called her, I went to Starbucks to meet with her, I got there and we took a photo for Instagram
(photo wouldn't upload soz)
JackAverymusic : Beautiful ❤️
Zach POV
I've had a crush on Jack for awhile, but he is straight, the boys know I'm gay, and that I like Jack, jack just doesn't know, I'm scared, I got snapped out of my thoughts when all of our phones buzzed, I looked at what it was
JACKAVERYMUSIC POSTED A PHOTO
I clicked on it and started crying
(Again it wouldn't upload)
JackAveryMusic : Beautiful ❤️
It broke my heart, I started crying, Daniel hugged me and started whispering nice things I my ears, the boys were saying other things aswell to cheer me up, we got home and we all got out.
I stopped crying and we went inside
We hear quite sobs from upstairs, right away I knew it was Jack
I ran up stairs and knocked on his bathroom door
"JACK ARE YOU OK?!" I yell/ask
Jack POV
I made a few more cuts on my arm, I started crying, I red more comments.... I didn't even hear he boys come in, there is a knock on my door hen Zach yells
"JACK ARE YOU OK?!"
I start freaking out, I jump up, I try and grab the bandages but I end up knocking EVERYTHING over and out, all my blades are on the floor, the bandages unrolled, the gels... everything
By now Zach is screaming my name with the rest of the boys, trying to knock the door down
I stand there and start balling my eyes out... knowing I got caught, there is blood all down my arms, my knees get wobbly, I fall and knock my head on the ground
I have a headache now, tear stains, blood and scars, the boys got the door down and look at me, sadness in their eyes, Zach runs over to me, he is talking but I can't hear him, my hearing is blocked, I just stare into the distance, and then darkness comes over me
Zach POV
I hear thing scatter, all the boys are in here now we hear him crying, we are all full on banging on the door, screaming his name, I run off and grab a bobby pin and run back, I unlock it I hear something hit the ground.... hard
I open the door and see him on the ground, blades everywhere, an unrolled bandage, his gels.... everywhere we look at him, he has blood on his face, arms and legs.... I couldn't believe it, he cut
I run over to him and start yelling his name, he can't hear me, he looks.... dead
*2 hours later*
Jack POV
I flutter my eyes open, my arm hurts bad then I remembered what happened, I sit up, put my head in my hands, legs up to my chest and I start to cry
Zach bursts through the door and runs to me, he hugs me
"I'm so happy your ok!" He pulls back and looks me in the eyes
"You don't need to explain why, we red the comments" when he said that another tear rolls down my cheek
He wipes it with his thumb
I decided to tell him
"Zach I need to tell you something"
He nods his to continue
"I-I I have h-had a crush on you for a-awhile now and I understand your straight but-" he cut my off by kissing me
He pulls away
"Will you be my boyfriend Jack?" He asks
I smile so big and start crying
"Yes *sniff* I will"
