Some people say that 'weirdness' is just for nerds, weak hearted, or sometimes they call it "psychos". I know, this is not clear to you. I know that there are some things baffling inside your pretty pretty brain. So, I'm going to make this statement clear.
First of all, do you know that I'm very weird at many things? Like for example, watching television with my earphones on, talking to myself in front of the mirror, questioning myself, "What is wrong with me?", but, enough about that! Perhaps, even, if I tell more, you don't even care right? Nah, just kiddin'. Or do you? Okay stranger, enough about that. We're going too far from the topic right? I mean, you know, it really confuses you, neither do I! (laugh*)
So, this is the main reason why I've decided to do this thingy, lol!
May I ask you a question? Is it weird? That I'm falling in love with my "bestfriend"? Well, it's not big deal but, I swear, it really bothers me okay? Like, it is indeed pretty weird. But I swear, I know that we have something in common.
For example, we're both loyal on our partners, we're both scared to be left alone, and finally, that we both give our love to our partners 101% even if we know that we're not sure if it's really our own 'destiny'. And in fact, she's really weird too, like you know, others call it "creepy". (So, do you want me to define her? Okay. BUT! It is our secret okay? So zip your mouth after reading this, or if you don't, I'll cut it. I'M SERIOUS! Nah just kiddin'!)
As a matter of fact, she's not a bad girl, or in specific, she is not a "sensuous" person. To be honest, she is more likely defined as the "parang hindi babae" girl. She's about 5'3" tall, have a long hair, good posture of body, she's more like of a beige medium skin, have small lips but not chapped, have a good shaped nose, and finally, she has the most wonderful laugh in the whole world. Like for me, she's the "perfect package".
What I meant to say is her characteristics totally match in my standards when choosing a girl. But of course, I know that it's impossible to her to be my girlfriend. (Don't bother me to ask why because it is really confidential).I really think that I'd fallen already, to her. How does that happened? Oh I don't know! Maybe because I'm too addicted to her? In this past few days, when she call me up at my cellphone, the joy in my brain begins to bundle to each other.
I also want to be with her everyday and if we're not seeing each other, I'm always thinking about her. Oh my freaking freak! I don't know what to do!---
Sometimes, in some circumstances, that little little tiny one thought always bothers my mind, like I'm always going bananas! Yep, you're right, I'm pretty overreacted there. So then, there's this thought that questioning myself,
"What if we're not best friends?".
What is the possible thing that could happen? Oh my, If I had a chance to get her, I swear! I will do anything to make her happy! I don't care even if I looked like an idiot. Some people say that "love is blind", Which is true and adequate for me. So why do I agree on this one? Simple, because in love, nobody is perfect.
Some partners are pride eater, some are pride queen/king, some are amputated, some are literally blind, deaf or some had disorders in their body. My point is, love doesn't choose anyone, love is must be shared for everyone. Even if you are black, asian, american, arabian, skinny, fat, tall, short. So also, "my love for my bestfriend" is also included here. So what is my point here? Of course, It's not my fault to fall in love with my best friend, it's natural to fall inlove. And yeah, I know, it's wrong to fall in love in that way, but c'mon! I love her!
So before I end this note, I've decided to stay quiet about this, about my feelings. If you really love a person, you must give your time, efforts and love. But in my situation, I'm also doing it, but not telling or saying anything. I will give my time to her everyday, comfort her, and also love her, but of course, I'll stay frosty.
Thank you very much for spending your time just to read this! And also thanks to my bestfriend. I promise, I'm always here, trying to make you happy every time, even if I fail sometimes. I will always love you and I will always protect you. So that's it!
I will end this short story by saying,
"May mga bagay talaga na hindi na dapat sabihin pa, nakakatakot kasi, baka 'yung dating samahan n'yo, mawala nalang bigla ng dahil sa mga salitang 'yun. Mahal kita, makaramdam ka naman please."
