So any fucking way... It's been a struggle. A whole motherfuckin struggle to see that you've moved on. Moved on with him. A modern heartbreak lol. How crazy is that. I said I'd never be hurt like this ever but wow, here I am. And it's my fault lol. L. O. L. We had it good, I'll admit. We had it so fuckin good. You was my ride or die. Deadass I know there's no other girl that would've put up with my bullshit like you did. Wow. Lmao. This so fucking tragic. A fucking cliche. You were my girl. My mf baby. I used to get irritated when those raunchy ass bitches complained about how niggas weren't shit. But damn... it's true. I'm not shit. Never was. Especially since I lost you. I could've had it all. The game. The girl. The life. But when you lose one it's like all of a sudden you lose it all.
You get distracted. You start thinkin. You start drinkin. Lol. I started drinkin for sure. Damn.
I used to think if I went back, I coulda prevented all this. Ha. I couldn't have prevented fucking it up. Messing you up forever. Funny thing is you knew. You knew but you didn't want to say it because it would've hurt more. And you watched me while I watched how I was hurting you. Lmao I'm a piece of shit. It wasn't until you really caught me. When you just couldn't handle the truth. You saw me in my bed, toes curled and all. You didn't move. You watched until I saw. Wow. I imagine the shit I feel right now don't compare to the shit you felt when you saw that. You didn't even speak. You looked disappointed. Fuck. I hate that. My one shawty who was supposed to think of me as the King of her world looking at me like I was trash. Ha. I am trash. You didn't say shit. You just walked up to me; I thought you were Finna hug me. I was confused but you just broke the chain off my neck. The chain with your name. You walked out. Not a tear. I know you cried though. I know. But you held it in in front of me cuz you didn't want no piece of shit to see you cry.
Wow.
I tried to talk to you after. But you weren't quiet no more. You were screaming. Swinging at me. Throwin shit. The niggas I stole you from were quick to come at me during school lol. Tryna get on yo good side by hurting me. That first hit from them and you quit. Still. Still too good. Too good for them. Too good for me. You said you wished my dick would fall off lmao. Hope I'd enjoy that two minute happiness cuz that's all I was worth. I didn't argue. I wanted to cry. Fuck shawty. I wanted to cry. You said there's no bitch willing to stick with me while I'm on some bullshit. No girl who knows me like you. Who knows me and still wanna deal with me.
You right.
Another nigga found you. He fixed you I guess. You weren't happy like you were before what I did for awhile. You'd smile and stuff, I'd see that, but it wasn't the same. Not the smile that made me hit you up in the first place. But then he came around. It took a few months. But he did it. He Brought it back. That smile that I took. He stole it from me and made it his. Lol. You thriving now. By his side. I could be on some bullshit and say he don't even know how good he got it but he does. He sees you. He appreciates you better than I did. I'm sorry shawty. Fr.
I know you still have a feeling for me somewhere in you, I know it's there but I know it's nothing but hurt. Nothing but a feeling that'll keep you from coming back to me. To protect you from bein disappointed by me again. Lol. Fuck. I'm a pussy ass nigga. Complainin about what I coulda had and how I fucked up. But fuck it. Fuck it. Fuck it.
Fuck it.
