Fight For Control

Chapter 1

Hizumi has taken over my body and I am still conscious behind the scenes. I have watched him kill thousands of people. I haven’t been able to gain control of my own body so I have been reflecting on how I got into this situation.

“Hey Mika, have you ever tried to just let go and have fun? Listening to the people you hate scream, while they thrash and try to get out of YOUR hold?”

“Stop it.” I was hesitating to say I would love to let go, but letting go means I give him what he wants, and I can’t do that.

“You know I can read your thoughts right? I mean we are technically the same person.”

Hizumi says in a matter of factly state.

“I can’t lose to you Hizumi, not even if I want to let go.” I say remembering how I got here in the first place.  

It was a year ago, around this time of year actually, December 8, 2888, my parents were killed by Hizumi, but he was using my body, so I blame myself for the deaths of the only two people who actually cared about me at the time. I used to live in Balibad, where there was a hierarchy. Basically, the people who had more magica from the sylphs had the power to rule and the people who didn’t, lived in poverty, struggling to get a peice of bread. I was the only one at my school when I was really little who actually understood how the whole system worked, so because I rebelled against everyone who liked the royals, I was bullied a lot, and if it wasn’t for Sinbad, the only person who understood me besides my parents, I would be dead. A kid who really didn’t like my opinions, pinned me up against a wall, with a knife to my throat, and if Sinbad didn’t walk past that corner that day, I would have been killed. But shortly after, Sinbad conquered a dungeon, and so he moved to conquer more. I was left alone and was still being bullied, so Hizumi, my other personality, was created at a young age. He wasn’t always bloodthirsty like he is now, he used to care about my opinions on what he did. He used to be kind to me. But then one night, I told my parents about him, after he told me not to, and my parents didn’t like what they heard.

“Mom… Dad… can I tell you something?” I ask them very nervously, worrying about what Hizumi told me before.

“They won’t accept you anymore, they won’t accept me, you can’t tell them!” Hizumi said, yelling at me, where people can’t hear him, in my head.

“Sure sweetie, what is it?” The both said simultaneously with a look of discouragement and worry in their eyes. They were very protective of me, and so I’m sure the first thing that came to their mind was that I was asking to leave the house again.

I had many thoughts going through my mind, and they were all depressing thoughts like maybe I should listen to Hizumi, maybe Hizumi is right, what if they cast me out, that kind of thing.

“Do you love me?” I asked them intently, on the verge of tears.

“Oh honey, of course we do, we love you with all of our hearts,” my dad told me while my mom started walking towards me with her arms open, begging for me to go jump into the warm hold, but I avoided it and continued further.

“So even if something was mentally wrong with me, and… there was someone else, for instance, inside my head, like it wasn’t just Mika, but someone else too,” I said crying.

“WHAT ARE YOU DOING YOU IDIOT!!!!! I TOLD YOU NOT TO TELL THEM!!!” I heard Hizumi shout at me from inside, and my ears were ringing now. Of course my parents, didn’t hear him.

“What do you mean Mika?” My mom asked with a concerned look on her face and my dad started frowning.

“I mean… Mom, Dad, please meet Hizumi, he is the other side of me that is strong and protects me from the bullies. He has been doing so since Sinbad left. So now that I have formally introduced his name, I will allow him to speak with you guys now.”

Little did I know that Hizumi would take his anger towards me to far. When I let go, I lost consciousness of Mika and only Hizumi existed… when I came to, my parents were laying on the ground, cold, breathless and bleeding out.

“I warned you not to tell them Mika. And you were stupid enough to give me full control.” Hizumi was saying something that I only partially understood because I was in so much shock that the only thing I knew for sure, was that they were dead and I was alive, with blood all over my clothes. Before Hizumi could say anything else, I ran out of that house towards Syndria, where hopefully, Sinbad could help me.

So here I am, in the forests on the base of Syndria, not sure of my decisions anymore because Hizumi has been crazier lately, and has been trying to get me to eat the victims he kills. He says he is “hungry”. I won’t let him, but day by day I get weaker, and he gets stronger, so I am fighting it but I’m not sure how long I can hold him off.

“Mika, just let go, we can be in the same body with both personalities present if you just let go and have fun with the killings. I already agreed to only killing rich people, the least you could do, is make it so that I have no restraints.” Hizumi says in a serious but joking tone.

“No, Hizumi, I will not enjoy killing and I won’t let you do it without a fight, what happened to the Hizumi I knew when I first created you? Why did you turn out like this?”

“Whatever, let’s just get to Sinbad so that I can rest, I’m getting sleepy.” Hizumi avoided my question. That son of bitch!

“Then go to sleep!” I yell at him in a frustrated tone because he is getting on my nerves.

“I can’t do that.”

“And why not?” My attitude is getting out of hand… I should probably watch that, but now is not the time. Little asshole avoided my question again!

I walk the same way I’ve been walking for the past two or three days. I haven’t come into contact with anyone, that’s human anyway, and it’s like that on purpose. I’m staying away from cities and such because I was hoping that it would keep Hizumi under control, so far, it’s working. I see a shimmer of something high in the air so I rushed to find a tree I could climb, to see what caused the blinding light.

“Hizumi look! It’s Syndria! I can go find Sinbad!”

“Why are you so hooked on Sinbad? Isn’t he a royal like the rest?” Hizumi asked out of what sounded like boredom and annoyance.

“Sinbad was like an older brother to me, before he became a royal, Sinbad used to live like us, but he went and fought dungeons and became powerful and he created Syndria.” I claimed with admiration and fulfillingness in my voice. “I only hope he remembers me.” I say knowing that my cheeks were flushed red.

“Oh ho ho ho! Do you like the great king of the seas? Sinbad! Conquerer of the mighty seven seas?” Hizumi says with great amusement in his voice.

“There’s no point in hiding it from you, you’ll just search my brain for the answer, so yes, and I have since he started treating me like me, and protecting me from the bullies before you came along. When I see him, he will know right away, I will tell him right away everything that has happened and who you are and what… we’ve done.”

“Alright, I just want to sleep so hurry up.”

“Hai hai.” I stated already knowing that was what he was going to say.

I climbed down the tree and started walking, and it wasn’t long before we arrived at the base of the castle. There was not a lot of people around, so I called his name.

    “Sin!!! Sinbad!!!” I screamed at the top of my lungs.

    “Aye! Hush down Mika! Your head is pounding and that’s reverberating everywhere now!” Hizumi said like he was actually in pain. What a funny joke.

    “Sorry.”

    The doors opened and there were now people coming down the street, where did they come from?

“Who’s there?” There he was, he looked amazing and I was in awe as I stared at the man who used to be so short, who now towered over me.

“H-hi…” I said nervously, knowing that what I would tell him in a few minutes may cause me to lose my last hope of getting rid or learning how to control Hizumi.