Secrets

Tears

Hello, Im.. Lets just call me Diamond.. I live here, In this big yellow house.. Or.. We used to.. Now we live in a big white house instead.. It was a long time ago I was inside of that big yellow house.. And it was alot of fun there.. But now everything is just.. Memories.. Anyways.. My mom died when I were very young.. She died by cancer.. She was a very nice person.. Caring, Loving, Kind.. Of course I miss her but I have moved on with my life.. We also had 2 cats.. Lets call them Rita and Cupcake. They were the cutest! Ohh.. I remember how I played with them when I was little.. That was good times... But they also died at the hospital.. The people who worked at the hospital said that they had to kill the cats.. They didnt even try to save them.. Well lets move on a little.. It was a normal early morning and it was monday.. Im not the person who likes school anymore tho.. I loved school before.. Probably cuz everything was way easier back then.. Well.. I heard the alarm and I yawned and tried to go back to sleep again.. I grabbed my pillow and I put it on my head. I could still hear the alarm so I sat down in my bed and looked out of the window.. I saw how the sun almost killed my eyes.. And I saw how the day slowly started to come alive.. I opend the window and I heard how the birds sang a beautiful song.. And how the cars went.. I felt the cold wind against my face. I closed the window and started to get ready for school. I had my breakfast, I brushed my teeth and were done. I walked outside and started to go to school. When I were there I saw how everyone were in different groups. One group for the pink bitches, one group for the Fotball Nerds, And one for the Gamers. It was just that I didnt fit in any of them.. I heard the bell ring and I started to walk to the classroom. Everything was like usually.. Everyone talked and no one was quit listening to the lession.. I sat down on my place. I almost sat in the front. All I did was just waiting for everything to start.. The teacher told everyone to be quiet. And the lession continued. And when we had a break from the lession. I never quit know what to do. Im always alone on the break.. Because everything.. Just dosent fit when it comes to me and them.. Of course it dosent seem like the most funniest thing to do.. But what can I do? I walked out of the classroom and walked to a bench. I sat down and just looked at all those people. Some played fotball and some just whisperd rumors that probably wasnt true. The bell rang and I walked inside.  The day moved on like usually. Everything was like usually.. But I just felt.. Like a bird in a cage.. I felt lost.. I dont really know why.. But when the last lession came I was close to break down in tears.. I.. Just wanted to fly free somehow.. What can I just say?.. Its complicated.. In that moment.. Everything just standed still.. School was over and I grabbed my bag and walked outside as fast as I could. My tears were still stuck in my eyes. I started to walk a little slower after the few steps from my school. My tears were finally gone. I heard someone screaming my name, I turned around and I saw ''The Bubblegum Bitches'' But the worst was that it was the ''Queen'' of them. She had long black hair and the most expensive clothes. I stared at her quiet for some secound but before I could say anything she were first. - Uhmm.. Are you just gonna stare at me like THAT all day?.. She looked at me like she was about to turn behind again. But she continued talking. - So.. Why are you always so... Eeh.. YOU? I didnt answer. That feeling was back again. My tears came back. I just wanted to run away.. But when I tried to.. I just standed still. - Literally are you gonna say something?! She started to get mad.. I answered with a quiet voice.. - I-i dont know.. She continued talking about stuff.. Stuff about me.. People started to watch her talk to me.. I didnt know what she sayd.. All I heard was YOU, YOU, YOU. People started laughing.. - So..? Have you forgotten how to talk?.. She smiled at me. She continued talking to me. I were going crazy.. My tears slowly turned into fire.. And all that could come out of my mouth was... - SHUT THE FUCK UP! I screamed the loudest I could. Everybody stopped laughing. I runned away crying. I came home with tears in my eyes. My dad asked what was wrong. I just runned to my room and cried in my bed. When I got out of my room my dad were pretty mad. He was wondering why I cried.. He talked fast and loud. After that I just sat in my room all day. I cried myself to sleep. I were just wondering.. Do I really belong here?..