rants 2

intro.

I like to be everything you want but that doesn't seem enough now and days.

I was waiting for you to reply saying we weren't over.

I kept waiting.

and waiting.

but nothing.

nothing.

I was so head over heels for you. I wanted to be with you right after the first "real" breakup. but you did the same to me.

and my best friend has left me too. she has a family and a future husband to worry about. she doesn't.

everyone I had love has left me.

intro.

im sorry if I had forgot to say goodbye when you left. I'm starting to forget to talk.

and forgetting to eat.

I had so much reasons too leave you in the first place but I was so desire for love and I wanted to find out what it was like. I still don't know what it is. I tired to make to the best out of our situations for 2 years but I didn't tried hard enough.

everyone falls in love sometimes and I don't know if thats bad I fallen in love multiple times but it never works.

tell me that you love me again and that all of this is just a nightmare.

I pray

and pray that god well bless me again.

but he hasn't.

and I know he putting me through all this pain for a reason but I don't know yet, he sees me hurting and he's going to make me a stronger person at the end of this. my faith is as strong as it could ever be right now.

I can't talk about my feelings in person, writing everything down and putting this out there is very uncomfortable for me but I can't do this alone.

welcome to my head. my thoughts.

song ; joyelyn flores by xxxtentaction