7/10
I never truly knew what it meant to miss someone until I was laying in bed with my heart aching at the simple thought of you. It feels like a part of me is missing. With the love that we had there's no doubt that I would miss you. But I don't know how to fill this empty void inside of me. When you left you took a piece of me that I'll never get back. Maybe that's why I feel so empty. My heart will forever be yours for the rest of eternity. After all, you were my first love. I don't know how to fix this burning pain in my chest. Everyone is telling me to move on and forget about you and find someone new. But the thing is that no one will ever make me feel like you do. You could make me feel like I'm on top of the world by giving me the slightest smile. Your laugh sounded like a melody that I could listen to for ages. Everything about you captivated me and made me love you more and more every time I saw you. I didn't even know it was possible. And for that reason I cannot move on, I'm afraid I never will. I'll always compare them to you and I'll know they'll never be good enough or make me feel like you did. You felt like the breath of fresh air after being under water for nearly too long. You saved me. But now that you're gone it feels like I'm suffocating. The thought of you no longer brings butterflies to my stomach but instead it brings pain to my chest. It's like a tightness in my heart and it gets hard to breath. I'm trying my best to explain but you can only know the pain if you've had everything you've ever loved ripped away from you in the blink of an eye. And I don't know if you're coming back this time and it hurts. A part of me wants us to move on and find someone to make us happy and fit the broken puzzle pieces of our hearts back together. But another part of me doesn't. Is it wrong for me to never want to see you with another girl? I know it's selfish of me but I know seeing you love someone like you loved me and pouring all of your affection into her will absolutely destroy me. I'll remember what I once had and how I fucked it all up and lost it. And I know I'll never get it back and it'll hurt like hell. How am I supposed to move on from you? How? I simply can't. I loved you with a love that was more than love so how the hell did it all go so wrong. I wish I had the answer. Maybe we weren't meant to be or maybe it wasn't the right time. Im not sure. All that I am sure of is that I loved you. I did. I loved you with every piece of me. Losing you was something I'll forever regret and the pain in my chest will be a heavy reminder of what I have lost.
