How Could I Be Writting This If I'm Dead?

Chapter 4 ----Where Everything Falls Apart-------

Its been a while since I last blew up but I realized that I was keeping it all bottled it up inside. This is my  last story until we get back to our present time. I was at school and my Science teacher going on about some stupid , pointless subject of ultraviolet rays and visible light. It was stupid. I heard ruffling of papers and ripping of paper. I turned around and all the kids behind me were whispering and giggling. Some of them even stared at me.

I tried to ignore it. But then someone passes a note to me.  Nice ass. -Johnny G.-

Everyone in my class read a note that said i had a nice butt. That's not even the worse part. Another note was passed to my desk. I unfolded, scared to what I might unveil. Okay, I'm sorry for the first note. I just think your really sexy. -Johnny G.-

I was flattered. To think that a really cute guy like Johnny would fall in love with my body. I was been so self-cautious. I was so insecure. I wanted a tummy tuck and a nose job. I felt like I was fat and my face was distorted but Johnny loved my body.

Meet me at the quad. I want to ask you something. ;) -Johnny-G.-

After class ended, I was so excited. He was going to ask me out I thought. My first boyfriend. I felt happy. After all the sadness I felt happy!

I walked over to the quad. My heart was thumping. I saw Johnny. He started laughing. I looked confused.

"Why are you laughing?" I asked.

"You actually thought I would go out with someone as ugly as you?" He yelled so everyone could here.

"What?" Tears started to fill up in my eyes.

Then a guy walked over with a video camera. It was Ryan holding the camera. Then all of their friends came over and broke into roars of laughter.

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The next day, at lunch there was an interruption with the school bulletin(a place at school where they display videos of upcoming events at school) and everyone watched. The video,as you can guess, was me being humiliated from Johnny the day before. Mortified, I ran out and ditched the rest of the day of school. I walked all the way home which took me about an hour.

When I got home I knew that I had enough. So went into the bathroom and opened the cabinet. Popped open the capsule of medicated pills and swallowed them. I suffocated and had seizure. I foamed at the mouth. But I was happy to leave this place.